Planning My Life Out

Lately I have been watching tons of youtube videos about how to use planners. Through my search I found one youtuber who has the planner lifestyle I think I want for myself. The more I watch the videos the more I learn how to plan. I think I wanted to plan because I feel that when you start planning you are really taking more control over your life, which is something I think I need. The youtuber I watch plans her days out every single day and focuses on achieving goals slowly with a set routine. I think this is absolutely perfect! I’m hoping I can create this for myself in my life. In the past I have bought planners but never used them daily, so my planners had a lot of blank pages that went to waste. From what I’m learning from this youtuber I need to write in my planner every single day, even if it seems repetitive. Actually, repeating the goals everyday is actually helpful because that way I can keep myself focused. Personally, I have no discipline and will let go of any routine or habits in about a week. I would like to change this because I feel this is part of why sometimes I am so negative. I really don’t trust myself or believe I can do anything because like I said I usually let go of everything only to feel guilty afterwards. I don’t want to feel that guilt anymore, I would instead like to feel like I can commit to something and see it through.

I have been following her method for two weeks and while in the beginning I did leave some days blank especially on the weekend, now I am starting to get more serious and disciplined with it. Planning my days out helps me feel accomplished. When I look back at what I was able to do on a particular day I feel like at least that day didn’t go to waste and I was productive. Thankfully the youtuber I watch has many videos explaining in detail exactly how to use any planner. The more I watch her videos, the more motivated I feel. Sometimes I feel a bit like a Teacher writing the to-do list for a class and it seems unnecessary or like I am too old to be doing this for myself, but then I remember that whatever makes me feel good is worth doing. I also learned to make sure my goals are starting off small and then eventually going after bigger goals. The first time I set my goals I was a bit depressed because it reminded me how far away I was from actually reaching them. For a whole day I put away my planner until I watched the youtube videos and got motivated again. This is barely my second week writing daily on my planner but I already find myself feeling more in control of my life. Ticking off my to-do list and writing each day what I must do in order to get myself closer to the goals I have makes me feel grounded for some reason. I know that there's people out there that don’t need this, people that can live life with a lot less control than me, but I have to stop comparing myself because this only makes me feel like I’m failing somehow. Watching the youtube videos has become a part of my daily life too because this person across the computer screen makes me feel like I’m not as strange as I think I am. I’m hoping I won’t abandon my planning which is why I’m writing about it here. Actually, in my planner I have scheduled daily writing for vocal, which is why I have been more consistent writing. Planning my days has been working out so far and I hope I can keep it up.