How to heal fully and properly.
Picking Up The Pieces
As I settle myself in to mentally prepare myself to write, I feel cautiously content. I have a cat cuddled up beside me — a former stray that chose to adopt us a handful of years ago — the birds outside my bedroom window are singing their morning chorus, and the gentle pitter-patter of rain is making me feel hopeful that Spring may finally be here to stay. I normally listen to music while I write. I find that it helps to drown out the racing thoughts that typically veer me off track. I can become distracted by the most inconsequential things. Today, the sounds outside my bedroom window is enough to keep me grounded.
DAIRY ENTRY #ilostcount
DAIRY ENTRY 5/9/2021 I wish I could turn this day into a statue. So that I could always look at it and know today was real. Days run like water through your clutching hands. They slip away, and memories fade like the color of your favorite shirt.
"You hurt me." "I know. And I'm sorry." "I'm not sure how we could ever get past this." "I know. A lot has happened. Maybe we could just, sit down and talk?"
Become the victor...
Have you ever felt like anyone has done you wrong when you didn’t deserve it? Or maybe that someone is disrespectful or dislikes you no matter what you do in order to get them to like you? You do have a choice to be the victor and stand up for yourself or even to walk away instead of being the victim.
The Power to Manifest Your Own Destiny is With You
The Power to Manifest your own Destiny is with You A man…searching for light and lightness within himself is a wise, peaceful, fulfilled, joyful man. A man searching for light and lightness outside of himself is a suffering, afraid, and needing man.
My Road Trip with Worry
The 13th century poet and theologian, Rumi, is throwing a party in his guest house and I’ve decided to crash it. This being human is a guest house. Every morning a new arrival. A joy, a depression, a meanness, some momentary awareness comes as an unexpected visitor. Welcome and entertain them all! Even if they are a crowd of sorrows, who violently sweep your house empty of its furniture, still, treat each guest honorably. He may be clearing you out for some new delight. The dark thought, the shame, the malice. meet them at the door laughing and invite them in. Be grateful for whatever comes. because each has been sent as a guide from beyond. -Rumi
Cherishing my life
I always wanted to travel the world. I currently sit here in my room looking outside through my sliding door. I sit and ponder how the world looks like. Yet what I don't know is that I already set foot through out the whole world. I can close my eyes and I'm swimming in the beautiful alaskan hot springs as I stare at the morning view of the sun and enjoying the nice warm steam of the water that soaks me into bliss. As I write I'm already creating that feeling. I can also go back to my country and hug my grandma. The loving woman who took care of me during my childhood days and gave me the most tender love anyone has up to this date.
RAINBOW and her PATCHES
Hello, my name is "Rainbow Crystal Henderson" I remember as a kid how I was always teased and bullied by other kids because of my skin tones and my name which happened to be "Rainbow." But, I just tried to let it roll off. See I have a condition and it's called Vitiligo. Meaning, I have various light shades of patches, with a faint bit of pink and white on my brown skin.
Gazing at the silhouette through the two way mirror. I mysteriously watch as the white light shimmers. A colorful being so mysterious and bright. Like a palette on an easel so vibrant in sight. The stain of the bright red splatter on a garment.
The Water Technique to Heal yourself completely
Hi there, This is my first story to be shared on Vocal. In this first story, I would like to share a technique that I had learned from a motivational speaker a few months back. Actually, I was looking for a technique that could help me to control and change those habits, upon whom I had no control or could not change and was suffering severely.
The Silver Lining Of Pandemic
The year was 2020, 1st January was welcomed as usual with enthusiasm and 31st night hangover in many longitudes. New resolutions to cross off this year and feeling of starting afresh again with great energy was at the zenith waiting to be fulfilled again. But deep within the Wuhan province of China people were hoping for a new sunrise to come as rescue for their loved ones and somehow protect them from the invisible enemy.
The last to know
How come am I always the last to know? how come everybody knows before me? What makes them feel like they deserve more than me? what makes them want to see me with nothing, lying dead on the side of the road? My mind... they all want my thought process. my sight. my opinion , but not when my opinion applies to them. I love to see myself in others, in fact that's all I look for. and the other persons ability to see me in themselves. I'm tired of the envy of being financially broke and mentally free. Being a house cat has it's privileges... I am also over the need to prove anything. to show anything. I'm sick and tired of people expecting me tom eat their bullshit and feel satisfied. All I ask for is to be given the same understanding that is expected of me. I am a very forgiving person, but I am human. I cry, scream, I laugh and dance, clean , write. Do whatever I have to to get through the trials that come before me. I never feel defeated until someone asks me if I need help. As if I can't get through this on my own. And please don't misconstrue that last sentence either. when I say alone , I mean me and the most high. as if my faith in the most high guiding me is not good enough or fast enough to suit them. we all have our own pace in this race. I run the 100. I run the relay. I have do the long jump every damn day! Dammit! what else do y'all need to see? Looking around my house , judging... How dare whomever! Fuck the views that you have of me and my children. We are GOOD. everything that has come at us we have faced and over come. Right now I'm only interested in learning things that can assist me with helping them elevate higher and not stay stuck. I have read about a few of the most successful people, not being happy or satisfied when they reach their goals and feel its nothing left to experience or they just had enough and they committed suicide or at least tried to. Today I had no choice but to put my phone down and be present. The best thing that was ever taught to me was how to work through my anger and my pain, and sometimes that means just being still and coming up with solutions for my household. That doesn't mean I'm giving up it just means that everything has a time and space when it's only you and you don't have a team. I am my own TEAM. Everyday there is something new to tackle in my household. Everyday there is a win , big or small to celebrate. We know all to well how it feels to lose everything and have to rebuild. what we are focusing on now is how to be prepared when things come at us out of nowhere. Yes, being a single mom is hectic, stressful and can be overwhelming... But honestly , I wouldn't have it any other way. The peace in my home is worth all of the things that we have been through. It has been worth the struggle. The stress had taken a toll on our mental health. We are working through that as well. Sometimes it feels as though no one can relate, then I am reminded that every single mother has went through something similar as we have and can give words of encouragement. The encouragement feels good. knowing that you have at least someone who can identify with your struggles helps in ways that I couldn't possibly put into words.