2 years ago today, I received a message from a relative I would have never thought of getting for at least another 20 years. I'm not going into detail, but plenty of people have been through the same thing or similar, loss of family. It's not special nor uncommon. The one thing that is uncommon about the situation is that I chose to respond differently. Many people, and with every right to do so, grieve and go into a depressive state of mourning for days.. months.. even years after. Some people never recover or cope with the feeling or realization that they're gone for good. That's just unfortunately how life goes sometimes.

It’s very strange to to experience, almost in tandem... the evaporation of, well I was going to say two things I love at the same time. However I realise that in one case I am long overdue an overhaul and if I’m really honest … I’m not sure I loved it any more.

You’ve most likely heard the fable of the two wolves inside everyone.

For a bit of a background, I've always been interesting in reading self-improvement books and audios but I've never fully committed into even finishing one whole book or audio. As well as I have never committed into following all of the advice that I have been learning. I always wished I did but I would also always find an excuse not to do so.

For anyone who knows me personally, they wouldn't describe as being traditional, linear, or very detailed . I have always been more of an abstract, big picture, outside the box, go big or go home kind of person. This is true in my decisions I make in my life as well.

This personal statement consists of several passages which define my cultural, visceral, and academic being.

There was nothing overly elaborate about this room. Most would say it was common from the outside, with breaks in the glass from a previous break-in, shabby blinds that look they are hanging on by a thread (literally), and in the midst of all that could be see there was only the patched of light that would shine through in the dead of night.

I've decided that, no matter what, I'm going to start writing everyday. It doesn't matter if it's 3 sentences or 3 pages I'm just going to do it. I've always loved writing and have often said that I communicate better through writing than talking(I'm not sure if this is actually true or not or if my writing is any good but here it goes).

There is no shortcut in the highway to success. We all need to spend time, effort, and make sacrifices to reach our goals. Our habits play an important role in achieving our goals, and hence we need to shape our behavior to align them with our goals. But this cannot be achieved overnight. We need to improve little-by-little, bit-by-bit every single day to bring out a marked difference.

It started one day when I sat down in front of the computer and began typing. I had no read goal or direction to speak of. If someone asked me back then, "what are you doing?", my reply would have been something along the lines of, "I don't know." Really, it was that simple.

For nearly twenty years, I've had a dream that encompassed creating a homestead with a tiny house for my animals and me and being fully self-reliant. It took far longer than it should have because I just couldn't wrap my head around all the hows.

What I mean by decentralized income