My Future’s Past

The mirror showed a reflection that wasn't my own. My Future’s Past, that is no longer my Present. Looking through this shattered mirror, I could not relate with my Past struggles. The fearful, shy girl nolonger resonated with me. It’s like she never existed.

The over worried little girl, now seemed out of touch with my present reality. The world she once feared to face, now seemed within reach. The financial strains, daily life hassles and long term goals, she once felt overwhelming her; were now properly managed. The dreams and visions she once set as long-term goals in the past were now short term goals in the future.

Anxiety, procrastination no-longer lives here. This woman is full of life, and is ambitious. Nothing can stop her from doing what she sets her mind to do.This present world is full of excitement. I live by the mantra…..You are what you think , breathe and do. The choices you make today determines your lifestyle in the near future. Currently; I have grown to speak things into existence. My dreams and goals are constantly within reach, I feel like I’m living life in the first lane.

This Present reality feels so surreal. As much as I have grown to accomplish my past goals and overcame these past struggles; my new normal still feels foreign to me. The connection of whom I am becoming as a woman is hard to explain. Maybe it’s the constant evolution of my surroundings or I have simply just evolved as a person. The future feels different but in a productive way. The life I want for myself in my later years is being fulfilled presently. The only difference is the perspective I currently have in life. Sacrifice now for the life you want to enjoy in the future.

In Juxtaposition; The things that used to give me sleepless nights in the past nolonger affect me as much. Not because I have accomplished all my past dreams and goals, but because I have better visions of what I want in the near future. This present moment is what my future dreams are made of.

As I glance deeper into the depths of this shattered mirror, the memory of my future is like an empty space. Will I ever stop thinking of my present past and simply embrace my future’s present. Will the drive to live life in the fast lane still excite me like it currently does. It seems like as I evolve in life; my persona, and perspective of life gradually becomes clearer. This lioness currently feels unstoppable, despite being out of touch with my future’s past. But the reality still remains that, I still can’t resonate with my own mirror reflection. I don’t recognize myself in any of these aspects. It’s like a I’m meeting a version of myself through the lens of this mirror for the first time.

Even though My priorities have drastically changed and improved for the better. I still feel lost in this world sometimes. I beat myself harder nowadays more than ever before, when I make mistakes. No one’s perfect but I try to make myself accountable to the things I never cared about in the past. Growing up seems hard to do, despite trying to stay consistent. This present world can be lonely and difficult sometimes, but I would rather not go backwards.

This mirror reflection is a constant reminder of what used to be me, what can become me and what I am becoming simultaneously.

My Future’s past is inevitable and my present future is interchangeable. There’s no me without my imperfect imperfections .