Mother Nature Is One Hell of an Electrician

Do you have absolutely any questions for me, on any topic?

THURSDAY

• SELF: 10 minutes of tai chi before my shift. (2) Om Immunity Defense. 10 minutes of tai chi before shift.

• SPACE: Did dishes, twice.

• CREATIVITY: Audio project.

FRIDAY

Self

• (Day 1) Deepak Chopra's 21 Day Meditation Experience, Renew Yourself: Body, Mind & Spirit. Connected with my body, I feel joyful and energetic. Ram. I activate healing my body, mind and emotions.

• (2) Om Immunity Defense.

• 3.1 mile run 54 min, 42 sec. Taste the Jams--July on Spotify. Born to Run, by Christopher McDougall.

Self & Space

• Dropped off a bag of laundry.

• Washed a bag of my own. I wash my own work out clothes because I have to wash in cold and line dry.

• Garmin's 7 Minute Workout. Which actually took 8.5 minutes. Followed by 7 min, 40 sec of tai chi.

Create

• Spent the rest of the day either in creativity or napping.

HOW DO PEOPLE DO THIS

I spent 4 hours today at work, watching poorly made and truly awful PowerPoint videos. That's not what I do, at least, that's not what I do well. It was hard. I'm not sure how anyone does that type of thing for a full-time job. Perhaps if I knew, I would be earning a lot more money. Sitting still has never been my forte, unless I'm meditating. Go figure.

ONE WEEK OUT OF THE MONTH

I now have the data to back it up, thanks to Garmin Connect, and it damn near kills me. Once a month, for an unpredictable amount of time, I render myself useless. Running, creativity, getting up and staying out of bed becomes too emotionally draining. Coping with daily life becomes an impossibility.

A family member recently told me that by the time you are diagnosed with PMDD, you're already medicated for other things, so it's harder to pinpoint. So what am I supposed to do now? I am to just let exhaustion rule my life for an entire week out of the month? There are things I want, and wish to get done in my head. I don't want to behave like an asshole to people. But I can not deny that my inner circuitry moves towards disorder. Mother Nature is my electrician, and she has her own plan.

I called out from work a few days ago. When they asked for a reason, I simply said "exhaustion." For the moment, I would appreciate the ability to be able to remove my skin, and replace my brain with a newer tighter model, and breasts that don't hurt every time I move my pinky.

So while my daily plan of Self, Space, and Creativity is a great idea, I have to be kind to myself about letting any sort of structure go when PMDD takes over.

TODAY'S WEIRD BREAKFAST BOWL

• Nuun Sport +Caffeine, Cherry Limeade

• This morning's breakfast bowl contained: French fries, just egg, zucchini, mushrooms, black tahini.

• Huge pot of home brewed tea made. Should last me the next day or two. Got to learn to make even more.

• I made a huge pot of veggie rice, so I can easily create bowls later in the week.

• In another big veggie bowl for now are zucchini, olives, and left over corn chips.

• I am marinating portobello mushrooms, which I am hoping to cook like a guy I saw on You Tube, who made vegan shawarma.

• BEST THING I DID ALL WEEK. I made ice cubes out of a leftover smoothie. Those moments that I'm thirsty, or would love to chew on some Twizzlers. They're just straight up cool to snack on. I bought an egg holder in one of the schlocky stores in my neighborhood. That's what I used.

• By the way, have you ever tried "wrapped" cashews? You must. The ones I bought this week are dry roasted in their natural skin. You must find them!

> @garmin

> @nuunhydration

> Mushroom Shwarma (VEGAN!), The Wicked Kitchen. https://youtu.be/w1nvEd7SDqc