As time went on Lilianna became best friends with Mary Jane. Her father had never looked at her the same and it felt like wonderful life that she once knew would never be the same. Before the travesty against her body she had been somewhat an ambivert, knowing when to be introvert and extrovert. However after the rape she went completely changed, becoming an introvert completely. It was as if her spirit internally had been crushed, no longer in touch with God. She started to question if he was real, why would he let that happen to her, was it her fault for being disobedient or sneaky. Poor Lilianna, a child that had to face so many hard questions.
We often do not realize that trauma sets off things in our life that we simple do not anticipate. Rather that be feelings, emotions, events, endings, trauma is the one unexpected visitor that we never can anticipate. We look at our community now and a lot of the youth and adults are addicted to some type of drug. But where does this all start? Is it the constant bickering between parents that causes the child to search for an escape or the neglectful parenting that makes one run to another source for just .... anything? Could he be the young girl who was placed in a custody battle but ended up with the wrong parent? I mean I could go on, a lot of times we talk about the drugs in communities but we don’t associate the trauma.
When humanity is at its the pinnacle of change, which way do we decide to go. War is peace, freedom is slavery and ignorance is strength. Some of you all might be familiar with these words from the world famous novel, 1984. He speaks of a time when the world is under a one world order control, dissonance, fear, obidience and even the essence of humans when they are afraid of their ruler. Well, let’s just say a people can be controlled if they are indeed dependent upon one source. Why do we as humans stay co-dependent, why do we not break from the grips of control and love truly free?
Who said you can’t reach that goal, who said you couldn’t lose that weight, who said you don’t qualify for the job don’t apply, who made you feel like you weren’t good enough? Whoever doubted you, I want you to turn around and give them a big. ....... Thank you ! Yes’ I said it thank you! See those are the people who were fuel to your success during the time you were at a low point.
“yea it happened to me, more than once... yes I never called the police... yes I thought no one cared... yes I started to dislike myself... yes I felt ashamed and nasty... how could this happen to me! Why would this happen!” I couldn’t do anything but listen, how could this happen. What I am going to tell you is story of a young girl who believed she walked with God until it felt he was no longer there.