Giving up Caffeine
Ever since I was 15 I would start my day with coffee. I saved up money for a few weeks and bought my own coffee maker. It was the very first piece of technology I ever bought myself. I remember putting in the filter, adding ground coffee, filling the machine with filtered water and setting the alarm. I kept the coffee maker in my room and the smell of fresh coffee would wake me up before school. It was what I drank when I got home from school and what I drank throughout the day on weekends.
Why I Gave Up Veganism
I went into veganism with sadness. In 2010 I watched a documentary on factory farming called Food, Inc. and I started to cry. I watched how cows were abused physically, how they cried when their children were taken from them. The bacon cheeseburger that I ate for lunch turned my stomach. I remember having to run to a toilet to vomit because I became absolutely sick to my stomach. I vowed then and there to give up all animal products and embrace veganism.
A Slow Decent Into Madness
It's 2AM and all I have to do is wait. Death comes for all of us. The problem is death doesn't announce itself or waits to be invited, it just comes whenever it chooses and then it’s over. Death doesn’t care if your ready, or if you want it to come. Most people are surprised when death comes, like they hoped death would visit them at another time or another hour. The irony that the only certainty of life is death is the only thing that makes me laugh now.
One Moment of Calm
Sometimes all it takes is one moment, one deep breath to put everything in perspective. Usually my life is dictated by fear: of the unknown, of my past, of judgments from others. So it was hard for me to finally say fu** the fear and just do what I thought was right.
I started my vegan journey a year ago. I liked the idea of veganism on a conceptual level because I saw plenty of PETA videos about factory farming. It made me physically ill to watch little piglets and cows be physically abused just so I could eat meat and dairy products. I knew that ethically it was wrong to eat meat after seeing these videos. Like most people who jump into a vegan lifestyle, I felt overwhelmed because I realized very quickly that veganism requires a commitment to reading labels and researching preservatives. I then ended up down the rabbit hole of forum posts for vegans. For the first 6 months I always felt unsure of myself... my shopping was taking 3 times as long as normal.
Hi, my name is Elizabeth and I'm a functional drug addict and workaholic
I've always been a person with a plan, a goal, something to strive for. I like knowing where I'm going and why. I like being in control. My favorite days are the ones where I can account for every moment of the day and articulate how it helps me accomplish my plan or goal.
Knitting in Coffeehouses as the Sun Goes Down
I love to knit in coffeeshops after work. My work is done in my quiet apartment, usually alone. I write hoping I will create a narrative that will resonate with someone. Reading chapters and writing papers for my graduate classes until my quiet apartment becomes oppressive and stifling.
- Second Place in Social Shock Challenge
Please be patient, I have autismSecond Place in Social Shock Challenge
I often hurt people unexpectedly and unintentionally. I was diagnosed with Pervasive Developmental Disorder - Not Otherwise specified (PDD-NOS) back in my mid-twenties. I was completing my last semester of my undergraduate studies at the time. Back then, PDD-NOS was its own thing, something I had never heard of until my therapist mentioned it to me.