i am a 30 year old chaos witch except spells poetry and knowledge on the occult and theology
It's been five years since i died.. i don't know how i did it but looking back i should have known that i would still miss everything about you. i don't want to tell you this but i tried to kill the pain. I tried drowning it for three years i did what i could to dull the hurt. I turned to a bottle of alcohol but no matter how much I drank I couldn't get you out of my head. I lied to myself over and over again i felt like Alice going down the rabbit hole deeper and deeper until i couldn't find my way back i was so scared and alone. there still are days that i cry knowing that this hole inside me won't ever be filled by any vice or person. I Know i'm different without you. i loved you more than i thought possible. the pain i experienced was not only the pain from losing you but knowing that it was all a lie. you never truly loved me but you lied so well.
by. Edward Odren 1.Manipulation and misdirection when dealing with a toxic person you should always be weary of most everything they say. misdirection is a key tool that they will use to manipulate you along with fake tears or bouts of rage misdirection and manipulation are hard to spot at first but remember taking a step back and look at the whole picture this can in the long run help you make collected and rational decisions.