Carol Townend
Bio
Fiction, Horror, Sex, Love, Mental Health, Children's fiction and more. You'll find many stories in my profile. I don't believe in sticking with one Niche! I write, but I also read a lot too.
Stories (584/0)
What's Your Story?
When I first started writing, I wrote alot of stories about fantasy adventures. Many of my ideas were based on things I'd read. I enjoyed fantasy and adventure, it took me out of the real world and into a fantasy world where I could escape reality. As I got older, I wanted more from my reading and writing hobbies, so I read many books based on true life experiences. In my life-time, alot has happened to me and my family. Child abuse, domestic violence, mental illness, homelessness and other forms of violence. I started writing journals, though out of anger, hurt and upset, I deleted those journals. I regret that today, because my life experiences can help others through a journey that was horrific for me. I needed an idea, so I could recreate those journals, however, many of my notes were lost along the way. I came up with an idea, what if I could rewrite my true-life story using fictional characters? I obviously couldn't use the real names of the people who abused me in my story, because that would cause more problems. I came up with my continuing story 'Carrie and Love.'
By Carol Townend3 years ago in Motivation
Memories Are Made from Music
Have you ever heard a song, and said to yourself "Oh, I remember this? It was played at that awesome concert." Have you ever heard a song that was playing when you got your first kiss, and then turned to jelly from head to toe? Music can do that; it can trigger memories both good and bad, and it can even evoke tears of happiness, joy or sadness. Take for example, Savage Gardens 'To the Moon and Back,' this one gets me every time, because it reminds me of when me and my now-husband first kissed when we met in a hospital where we were in-patients. The whole ward cheered because they knew we were in love before we even knew it! Memories are worth holding on to, and music has a clever way of reminding us that our memories are to be treasured.
By Carol Townend4 years ago in Beat
I am now Learning to live Comfortably after Trauma
I spent all my life from an early age enduring trauma after trauma, from rape, violence, break-ins, life on the streets to losing everything. After going through this for many long years, I am now changing it. I feel safe where I live and secure in my home, however I have a tough time adjusting, and I constantly have to reassure myself that I won't go through all that trauma again.
By Carol Townend4 years ago in Motivation
Caring during the Pandemic
When my husband contracted Coronavirus, I was scared not only for him, but also for myself. In my house at the moment, self-isolating can be tricky as we share the same bed. Coronavirus started right after we started sorting the house out, and there wasn't a room free where we could sleep separately. I can not guarantee you won't catch the virus, but these tips kept me safe and helped me to protect myself. Here is what I did.
By Carol Townend4 years ago in Longevity
My Terrifying Experience Seeing My Husband Fight CoronaVirus
My husband works as a nurse, and because of that I always worried about his risk of getting Coronavirus. It was heart-breaking enough to hear about his recovery from cancer of when he was just three years old, after undergoing a serious operation, and them seeing him suffer from chronic pain issues after his car crash a few years back. However, as he is usually healthy and very protective with his health, even he thought he'd never get the virus. The hospital where he works has good measures in place, and he is strict on hygiene and social guidance so we thought it would be enough.
By Carol Townend4 years ago in Longevity
I can't sleep!
"I can't sleep!" It's the story of my life. I always complained about this when I saw a therapist to talk about my mental health, and sleep medication doesn't help me either. My sleep pattern lands me in a bad mood, not great when you have to study, write and clean the house the next day. Many of you will understand when I say this problem can make you feel agitated when you are a parent having to do the school run the next day. Luckily I don't have that issue at the moment, but when the clock is ticking, come morning you lay there, confused because its daylight before you know it! I have another problem with lack of sleep and going to sleep, it causes issues with restless legs. You know the one! The one where your legs want to move all night for no reason, and whether your tired or not, you just can't control it.
By Carol Townend4 years ago in Longevity
It Takes Time to OverCome an Abusive Past When History Repeats itself.
I went through many different cycles of abuse, during my childhood, at school and in adulthood. Up to the age of 22 I was physically and emotionally abused. I am a friendly person, and very sensitive. It seems my sensitivity was seen as a vulnerability for others to use against me. I went through many different cycles including physical violence, rape , break ins and people took advantage of me left, right and center. Some of it I spoke out about and reached out for help, but that fell on deaf ears, landing me in a very vulnerable position where I almost died, and I have spoken about that in my article 'I found love on a Psychiatric Ward.' This is a follow up from that article, and talks about how these issues affected me in more detail.
By Carol Townend4 years ago in Psyche
Coping with the Lockdown blues when you have a mental health problem
It is very quite on my street at the moment, and it has been like that for a while now. Normally I am at the beach, out in town or meeting people and helping them with mental health problems. However, like many in this Covid-19 pandemic, I am staying at home, helping to save lives. My world is upside down and my mind is pretty chaotic. Going to the supermarket is stressful because there are markers and social distancing rules. Going outside is suddenly scary again.
By Carol Townend4 years ago in Psyche
In the Face of the Corona Virus
I am not in qaurantine, and I do not have the virus. However like many, I am going out of my mind with boredom. Normally I am doing therapy for my mental health outdoors, but all the places I use including leisure centers are shut. I also have a condition that means I have to socially distance myself. This is really difficult, because in the thrall of severe mental health problems many years ago, it took me a long time to socialize again, and isolation became my best friend until I learned that my world was safe to go outside again. Recently I was restricting myself to visiting shops and going shopping in the car, but now I find myself bound to my home and my garden for quite some time so that I can protect myself from the Corona Virus. In fact it is crucially important as I am in the early stages of pregnancy and I have a health problem which makes me vulnerable. It was Mothersday yesterday, and my Mum is distancing herself because of her own condition. Its not where any of us chose to be, but it is really important to protect ourselves and others, particularly those who are vulnerable from the virus, which as we know, kills people too. However, it doesn't mean that we all become hermits, it means we stay safe and protect others who may be extremely vulnerable too.
By Carol Townend4 years ago in Longevity
Self-Care Tips for Mental Well-being.
Taking care of our mental health and well-being is not something we should do when we just develop mental health problems. It is something we should all do everyday, whether we have had mental health problems or not. Some mental health problems can be brought on by the stress we face in every day life, and they can occur even if we have never had a problem before. Self-care is really important when it comes to our mental well-being, even if we feel there is nothing in our lives that can cause a problem. Doing self-care can reduce the impact of everyday stresses like work, parenting, studying amongst many other things, in return it can also help us to reduce the effects that these things have on our mental well-being. Over the years, I have had many issues with my own mental health, some of which have been complicated, others brought on by everyday stressors. Below, I will share the tips that I use, that work well for me when taking care of my own well-being.
By Carol Townend4 years ago in Psyche
Why It Is Important to Say No
I used to be a people pleaser, and that means that I used to say yes to everything, including to things I really didn't want to do. I would put everyone else before myself, neglecting my own wants and needs along the way. If someone told me not to talk to someone, then I'd do it. If they asked me to behave in a certain way, I'd do it. If they asked me to do something or go somewhere where I was uncomfortable, I'd do it. No matter what the consequences, as long as I could make people happy, it didn't matter, until I got older and realized that people, including loved ones, were using me and depending on me far too much. I realized something had to change. However, I was uncomfortable with this change because I felt that changing my attitude would mean losing people. I had no self esteem and no confidence in myself, and I saw losing people, even those who were unhealthy for me, as a bad thing. Saying no was impossible, because I felt that everybody would hate me for it.
By Carol Townend5 years ago in Motivation