Bipolar disorder; understanding the highs, the lows and the in between.
The Search for Khadijah
How far do I have to go? Many times I’ve tried to commit suicide, but I was a coward not able to end the book called life. I wanted out sooner than later, with no excuses.
Wahalalafia (Part 13)
I realised that I am mortal when I was lying down. Sometimes we take life for granted, it's ridiculous. I realise that. I have to make every moment count. As you know, I'm a floater, so sometimes it's difficult to keep my feet and mind on the ground. I don’t know why it’s difficult for me to keep my feet on the ground. I’ve always been expressive in my sentiments, in how I’m feeling, in what I’m doing.
The Search for Khadijah
CHAPTER 1 "There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you." ― Maya Angelou At times a hidden story needs to be revealed. The story could have different characters and it could be told in different ways. Always revealing the outcry that can be heard over the sad music of one lost soul, but the results are always the same, we all seek love, acceptance, and peace.
Wahalalafia (Pt. 12)
Hey, It’s been a while, how are you doing? I’m going on holiday soon, to celebrate my bestie's wedding. I don’t know if she’ll read this, but I’ve got a big present planned, which will be nice!
Wahalalafia (Pt. 11)
I’m thinking of going away for a while. (Don’t worry, I’m not going to jump off a bridge.) What I mean by go away, is that I want to really meditate on who Marie is.
It Started with a Pen
It was brilliant. Easily one of the best quotes I had ever heard (or had I read it?). It had been stuck on repeat, in my head all day. (Was it lyrics from a song I'd heard?) The arrangement of words flowed together so effortlessly in my mind. (But WHERE had it come from?) I was lying in bed and the words were keeping me awake. Then a lightbulb went off.Katie Bindel
Wahalalafia (Pt. 10)
Heyyy sorry for the delay. I think I want a dog, or a cat, and I'm going to name her Ignatia, or if it's a he, Ignatius. I love really random, crazy names. I'm so tired. exhausted. I've just come in after a pizza date with my therapist (let's call her Jane). She's amazing, and transparent, which is always a good quality in a therapist.
Wahalalafia (Pt. 9)
Hey, I had a bad dream, so I thought to myself, hey why don’t I write? At the moment, I’m looking into reading affirmations, specifically Christian ones.
Wahalalafia (Pt. 8)
Hey. Now I'm irritated. I had an amazing blog, in which I wrote about Mother Music, and guess what, it was deleted! Now I have to start again! So anyway, I have to do it again. I find that I'm at my most creative when either I listen to music. For some reason, it helps me to focus. I know what is going on right now. In the background, the documentary of The Not So Secret Life of the Manic Depressive is playing. I find it so consoling when I know that someone, somewhere understands Wahalalafia. You know, I've discovered that Wahalalafia is an entity. I imagine it to be a multi-coloured individual, wearing a multicoloured suit, who is kind of my partner in crime. Its group includes: Dick the Depression, Opty, and Manny the Mania.
Guys, It's Alright
In today's world we are faced with a lot of people having trouble with mental health; more often than not, it's depression. When suffering from mental health troubles, people will often lash out at others without good reasoning, and most times, without even realizing it. As a result, we see things like, abusive relationships, family fights, and friendships ruined. That being said, I think the biggest problem with these mental health struggles is, admitting to yourself and others that you're are facing the problems. Although others may see you acting irregularly, only YOU know how you truly feel and what you are experiencing. Everyone has a predetermined notion that if you seek help you automatically show that you are weak. I have personally noticed this tends to happen with men... A LOT... Men naturally have a sub-conscious that tells them,"I don't need help; I can do this myself." Well, let me explain to you why you might want to rethink it guys.
Wahalalalfia (Pt. 6)
I'm bored and hungry right now, after taking a break after doing some radio work. I may get this job. Who knows. I’ll make some food in a minute. Now, I’m talking to someone on an app on which we talk about what goes on in our heads. There are many Wahalalafians out there! Of course, reader, I’m not going to tell their names for privacy.)
Wahalalafia (Pt. 5)
Wow! Wahalalafia gone wild! I just wrote the best ever blog about how I was misunderstood, and guess what? It was fudging deleted!