Life begins at 60

My journey into the new life I would have for myself began with a trip to the detox! I had been heavily drinking for about the last 10 years . As I watched my own health decline I also began to see my relationship; my children; and my general state of well being go as well. Suddenly things that had always been black and white had an incredible amount of gray.

There I stood in the abyss that was now my life. I had to make a decision because if I did not I was going to be in a place I did not want to be with someone staring back at me that I could not stand.

She was such a liar, a manipulator, and just as foreign to me as a stranger who woke up with me each morning without a name just a hideousness that I could not recognize. I had to face this demon or succumb to her self deceiving ways. I didn't like her and she had to go!!

I did what was necessary at that moment. My liquid courage was trying it's best to talk me out of the decision I had made. There she was again . She had a face and it was UGLY!!!

I entered detox on my son's birthday and called him before I left to tell him I was about to give him the best present I could think of. He was the strongest example of survival I knew at that time and still is today.

I walked thru those doors that had no handles to go back out and the demon alcohol went with me She clutched the door and lied like a badly frayed rug to get back out that door.

This time she did not win. We went through 1 month of rehab and miracle upon miracles I became the woman I remembered each day. Sylvia on steroids. I experienced clear thinking and reason for the first time in years I saw glimpses of the new woman coming out of me. No the drunk and not the one I expected ; a whole new complete woman.

Today I go to AA ; I volunteer; I have great relationships with new people ; I have great relationships with my kids and my home is MINE again. Time and AA and talking to professionals and other alcoholics has saved my life.

I no longer rely on 90 proof to get me through a day I rely on my faith and the person God truly created to bring new light to a world of darkness and this 62 year old has found freedom unsurpassed.