Most recently published stories in Psyche.
Think Good Thoughts
I remember thinking that I was a pretty positive person and that circumstances just got in the way of the real progress I wanted in my life. Growing up I kept a diary of things that I was dealing with and the questions I had regarding the way things would go. Life would present challenges and I kept my chin up and made sure that I spoke optimistically.
Depression and Time
Days without food or movement flow into one another. The only time that can be quantified is the moments during which my mind is less muted than usual—when emotions are something tangible.
Being Crazy Is Hard...
And yeah, I know. I'm not supposed to use the word "crazy." I'm "mentally ill," "emotionally damaged," "about to set out on my healing journey"...
Living in a Blameless World Part 2
Documentaries such as Prescription Thugs or Generation Rx can be very good documentaries but they tend to portray only one part of mental health and addictions many times and focus on drug abuse. My main concern regarding these documentaries is that frequently they do not show every aspect of the mental health issue. This concern alone can lead to people generating cognitive biased opinions towards the issues surrounding mental health.
Victory Starts in the Dark
Dark. The lights shut off. Darkness closes the windows of my sight, a perfect canvas for the eon-year-old mind within my young brain to paint its fears liberally. Am I living someone else's nightmare? The night's blindness amplifies every faint sound around me; the loudest silence ever broken by the heavy footsteps of an intruder and the smell of the monster's breath. I cannot see them, but their presence feels real. My muscles tense, ready to bust through the walls towards my parent's bedroom at any moment, but I dare not to move.
Understanding Anxiety, Panic, and Agoraphobic Disorders
This is not so much my writing as it is something that I think people need to read and understand in terms of people with anxiety, panic, and agoraphobic disorders.
Living with Depression and Anxiety
BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP. What? What is that? Oh no. My alarm. I have to get up now. I have to start my day. I have to get ready for work. What if people look at me today? What if they judge me. Shoot, I have bags under my eyes. What if they think I look tired? What if they judge how I look. Stop. Stop you're fine. Just put on your makeup, brush your hair and teeth. We're running out of time.
Living with Dissociative Identity Disorder
The first reaction I normally get when people find out I have DID is "Are you going to hurt me?" You wouldn't' say something like that to anybody with Cancer or somebody with depression so why is that the first thing that springs to people's minds when they find out about this? Personally, I think it is down to the fact that it is so badly represented in the media.
Postpartum depression, otherwise known as postnatal depression, happens after the birth of a child. It can affect both women and men.
Calling Suicide Selfish is Disingenuous
So, Chester Bennington is dead via suicide. He was the lead singer of one of my favorite all-time bands. Chris Cornell was too and, in fact, if Eminem and RHCP went next that would probably be my all-time top four.
Best Mental Health Experts To Follow On Twitter
The social media universe is the place we go to vent, discuss, collaborate, shop, learn, watch, consume, and waste time. For all the gratuitous chatter and trivialities, social platforms are a hotbed of advice, counseling and insight that you can take with you when you log off; you need only know where to look. One of the most productive applications of Twitter, and other online communities, is in the value it offers to individuals who are struggling with personal, difficult mental health disorders; even if they do not feel comfortable sharing their experience, they can find someone who is struggling with something similar or who can give them scientific insight into why their mental health state and emotions are what they are. In these digitally savvy mental health experts we see social media at its finest.
What It's Really Like to Have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) is widely heard of and spoken about. Yet it is also one of the most misunderstood disorders at the same time. So many people jokingly describe moments of fussiness and particularity as “OCD moments.” There has even been a television show, Monk, which is about a detective with excessive fears of germs and anything which is not 100 percent perfect. But OCD in real life is slightly different from those stereotypes.