how i feel

i'll be the first to admit i need help. i keep my emotions in and that does more damage than it helps. i need someone to talk to, but i hate talking about about how i feel. i hate feeling so vulnerable. i like being alone and keeping stuff to myself. sometimes i feel like talking to a therapist.

i hate feeling so alone. at times i'm surrounded by over 15 people yet still feel so alone.

school makes me feel like a failure. i feel like a robot. i wake up everyday and do the same thing everyday. everyday either feels like a monday or a friday, mostly mondays.

mondays - bad, miserable (everyday)

fridays - good, amazing (rarely)

school makes me feel insane. i feel so depressed at school. i feel stressed, lost, and so alone. most nights, every night, i sit in my room depressed. school makes me feel like i need help.

school makes me feel like a disappointment. i always feel like i'm failing my family. i'd rather be home schooled. i can't learn in a class. i learn better one on one or on my own. constantly being surrounded by people gives me anxiety. i just wanna sit in the bathroom and cry.

i just wanna be alone.