Have you ever battled Addiction?
Do you know anyone battling addiction?
This is the face of addiction. I know I look fine and you can't really tell in this picture. At this moment I was homeless staying from one place to another anywhere someone would let me sleep on the floor or on their porch. It is crazy now that I think back on it. I can not even believe the dangerous places I went to just to have a place to shower and sleep. I am clean and sober now and have been for almost a year and a half. I was an addict for four years. The hardest part of my life so far and now I hate myself for even starting. Nobody wakes up one morning and says "hay I wanna become a drug addict." Things happen in our lives that make some people turn to drugs like the loss of a child cause that is what happened to me. My 8-month-old daughter died from SIDS while staying at her father's over the weekend. I lost my whole world that day. I couldn't go to work because my mind wouldn't function. How I was introduced to drugs was my best friend was doing them and told me it would help take my mind off the pain. Next thing I know I am broke and homeless and putting a needle in my arm to get through the next few hours. Two years go by and I am still homeless and have no real friends because nobody wants drugs around them or in their house. I find myself using old needles increasing my chances of giving myself Hep C. By the way for your education you can get Hep C from a bacteria in dry blood, so you can give it to yourself using a needle more than once. By year four I had overdosed three times. At this time I just wanted to die it wasn't like anyone would miss me right? Wrong I was hurting my family and what friends I did have because they just wanted me safe and to get sober. So my cousin introduced me to a group called celebrate recovery. This group was a support system for people who are clean and sober and trying to stay that way. I was in and out of the group for six months until my best friend almost died and had to have open-heart surgery. That changed my life. At that moment I had something to live for my best friend I had to get clean so I can help her stay clean because if not she would die. Once she came home from the hospital I started taking her to celebrate recovery every week. I still go once a week because you will always fight that urge to want to do it just one more time. It is hard but anyone can do with the right help and a good support system. I have been clean and sober a year and a half. I now help others who come into the group I am someone they can call any time of the day when they feel like they wanna relapse.
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india novia
I love to write, and tell stories most of everything I tell people is true. Most people just can't believe someone can go through such tradety in one life time but here I am.
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