This is the face of addiction. I know I look fine and you can't really tell in this picture. At this moment I was homeless staying from one place to another anywhere someone would let me sleep on the floor or on their porch. It is crazy now that I think back on it. I can not even believe the dangerous places I went to just to have a place to shower and sleep. I am clean and sober now and have been for almost a year and a half. I was an addict for four years. The hardest part of my life so far and now I hate myself for even starting. Nobody wakes up one morning and says "hay I wanna become a drug addict." Things happen in our lives that make some people turn to drugs like the loss of a child cause that is what happened to me. My 8-month-old daughter died from SIDS while staying at her father's over the weekend. I lost my whole world that day. I couldn't go to work because my mind wouldn't function. How I was introduced to drugs was my best friend was doing them and told me it would help take my mind off the pain. Next thing I know I am broke and homeless and putting a needle in my arm to get through the next few hours. Two years go by and I am still homeless and have no real friends because nobody wants drugs around them or in their house. I find myself using old needles increasing my chances of giving myself Hep C. By the way for your education you can get Hep C from a bacteria in dry blood, so you can give it to yourself using a needle more than once. By year four I had overdosed three times. At this time I just wanted to die it wasn't like anyone would miss me right? Wrong I was hurting my family and what friends I did have because they just wanted me safe and to get sober. So my cousin introduced me to a group called celebrate recovery. This group was a support system for people who are clean and sober and trying to stay that way. I was in and out of the group for six months until my best friend almost died and had to have open-heart surgery. That changed my life. At that moment I had something to live for my best friend I had to get clean so I can help her stay clean because if not she would die. Once she came home from the hospital I started taking her to celebrate recovery every week. I still go once a week because you will always fight that urge to want to do it just one more time. It is hard but anyone can do with the right help and a good support system. I have been clean and sober a year and a half. I now help others who come into the group I am someone they can call any time of the day when they feel like they wanna relapse.
Why is gambling addictive?
If you are looking for information on how to get into addiction treatment then the internet is definitely the place to look. There are several sites out there that will be able to point you in the right direction of finding a treatment center and you will find there are many that offer free advice and even some advice on how to get into addiction treatment as well.
The scars in life make us who we are; beautiful and strong. Everyday is a new day to learn and love no matter the situation
It is safe to say that most people worldwide have fallen victim to drug addiction, whether it be themselves or someone they cared about. Studies done by the Center For Disease Control and National Center for Health Statistics state in 2018, 67,300 Americans died from a drug-related overdose. I wonder what the statistics will be after studies are done in 2021 regarding our current crisis. More have lost jobs, homes, loved ones leading more towards depression and drugs to ease their pain.
Hi I’m Justin, This is a short story about addictions and how to deal with your loved one that may be addicted. This is from my heart and personal experiences. First of all stop telling them that they are bad or no good they already know that . Second be patient with them. The key to overcoming addiction is with love. Your loved one is feeling they don’t belong or unconnected to his/her family or people around him. He/She has learned the wrong way and will continue to do the same thing over and over again no matter what you say or do. You have to connect with them,show them love, and spend time with them, and show them there is other ways to live and be happy. When you hurt them or put them down you are only pushing them further away. Do you know that an addict just wants to be loved. They just want to belong to something and make a difference. Right now the drug dealer shows them more love and concern then the addicts own family. (You may ask how is that true?). Well for starters maybe every time they buy there drug the dealer tells them be safe and take care. As opposed to you saying (fuck you im calling the police you are a piece of shit!). Also sometimes they may call to buy there drug and the dealer may say yo you got a family go home maybe tomorrow. That shows they also care about there well being. Now, when you see them you probably insulted them and told them there a loser. So please try to understand if you go to Dunkin Donuts every morning and get coffee and others suddenly ask you to never go there again that feeling is the same feeling the addict is facing in there life. Or if you are a marijuana smoker and suddenly are told not to use it ever again imagine that feeling and there’s a good chance you would not be able to do what others are asking of you. The addict has learned the wrong way you also perceive it as wrong or bad however that may be the only motivation they have at the current moment to get up and accomplish things for that specific day. I’m not justifying there use of narcotics or heavy drugs I’m just asking for compassion instead of judgement and hate. Most likely if there like me they won’t fit in anywhere. They don’t fit in with their family because the drugs are not tolerated or accepted and the family will tend to make there lives harder while on drugs, the last thing a family does is show love, they just preach and tell them there killing themselves. Families do not want the addict to feel ok or in a comfort zone while using so most families or friends will make chaos around the addict because of their hatred and/or anger in them, that there loved one is addicted. They don’t fit in with the dealers crew because deep down inside they want more for themselves. They don’t fit in with the addicts because there not proud of their drug use. They want to be free and clean, they just need a miracle in getting them to that point. I’m sure if you stop and think most things in life just kind of happen. Like for example when you get pulled over instantly you see lights and next thing you know you are receiving a ticket trying to remember if you were speeding or made a wrong turn or forget to use your turn signals. With the addicted it’s kind of like that, one moment everything is going great and next thing you know your whole life has been turned upside down. Please find it in your heart to move past the anger, past the hatred, and past the disappointments and actually help your loved one not by interventions, not by threatening Baker Acts against them. Not the conventional way that actually scares them and leads them to more drugs use feeling there is no hope. Take them to the movies. Take them to dinner. Take your time and give it to them. Tell them you want them to experience a drug free life and you will dedicate your time to spend with them to help them by doing activities and enjoying drug free moments with them in their life until they wake up, and see what is achievable if they would just dedicate their will and mind to change their current state of being an addict. Love wins, pay it forward, Please go show some love to someone who knows pain, and has suffered so badly because of there addiction. Also please quit stating things that people say which some believe as truth like your never going to change until you want too. I’ve wanted to change my entire life. I cry daily. I pray daily and I want to ask you (What would you do? Give up and die? Or keep trying as I do.). Sorry to disappoint anyone this is my struggle and I believe it will help the addicts and their loved ones somehow move forward and get closer to their breakthrough. ❤️
I am a mother to 5 year old boy, he is the greatest thing in the world. But I am also an addict, I’ve been an addict since well before he was born. I love him dearly but love doesn’t conquer addiction. I wish he was all I needed to stop. I’ve been a great mother most of the time and sometimes not such a great one. There have been times addiction has gotten the best of me and my mother in law was the one that helped me with my son, so my son didn’t have to seen me like that. I am greatful for the support I have around me, but I didn’t always have that support. Before I had that support I was a mess ! I would go back and forth from being clean to not being clean and back to clean again, all the while I had my son. Trying to put him and his needs first some days I could barely get out of bed from being sick, but I still got up and did the things I needed to do. The worst part was me using around him when he was a baby to a toddler. I always did what I had to make sure he had everything he needed and made sure he was taken care of. Even though I did make sure he was taken care of and had everything I still felt like a horrible mom because I couldn’t give up the drugs and even more horrible because I couldn’t give them up for him! No one understands that no matter how much you love someone especially your children, the drugs always have a tighter grip on you.
What do you bring with you when you are literally running for your life? Well, like the reasons that brought you to that point, the answer isn’t really all that simple.
We knew of each other for years before we became friends. Two hood chicks from Mt. Vernon, New York. Me from 3rd & 3rd and you from 7th & 3rd. Both us known for getting that paper!