This is a painting I did not that long ago. It symbolizes many things for me, but that's another story. This one is about Recovery from addiction. Many people think, "Once an addict, always an addict," and while that is true in some ways, its not true in all. I am four years clean. I never thought I'd see the day. I wanted to die at one point in my life. But little by little, after I was done with rehab (which I checked myself into without being forced), I began to rebuild my life. I started as a waitress—a waitress with a bachelor's degree. I used to be so bitter about that fact. I thought, "Why am I waiting tables when I could be doing so much more? I mean, I'm EDUCATED." But then God told me that I needed to humble myself. There are a lot of people out there with college degrees they aren't using. So what makes me so special? It was just my ambition and determination talking. So I did humble myself and I realized that I didn't get into the terrible shape I was in overnight, and I definitely wasn't going to undo all of that damage overnight, or in a day, or a month, or maybe even a year! I began to just explore. I ended up finding a "desk job," which made me realize even more that I do NOT want any desk job or confining job. I want to spread my creative wings and use my soul to do whatever it is I decide to do. I finally left the office job scene altogether, and decided one day that I am going to be a Copywriter. Because if I work hard enough at writing for others, maybe one day I will get to write about what I am SO passionate about: recovery. I just want that person out there struggling to get clean, stay clean, or rebuild to know that it IS possible, and I am living proof. I want to put together a group of people with a testimony to go to the schools in my area and talk openly and candidly about drugs, and what type of life comes along with them. And most importantly, I want to let them all know it CAN HAPPEN TO THEM. It is so easy to fall into addiction, and the street drugs these days are seriously lethal, and your chances are slim of living through it—and if you do, you'll most likely end up institutionalized. That is hell on earth, TRUST ME, I was there once upon a time. SO my short message is that recovery is possible... find your passion and GO AFTER IT and do what sparks your SOUL. Don't settle for anything less because we only get one life and wasting it doubting yourself is a tragedy.
Being in any type of relationship with an alcoholic or an addict is just hard for everyone involved. You want and try so hard to save this person from their self-destructive ways.
So you find yourself in a blended family with stepchildren, some who are grown up. By no fault of your own, one of the stepchildren happens to become a drug addict. You and your partner are non-drug users, not alcoholics and never have been. You are both "Normies" (normal people who do not alter their state of being by getting high or drunk all the time, preferring to mentally keep it normal).
June 15, 2018, This Is Me Company, sharing my life experience.
I am the Mother of an Addict learning more about addiction and recovery every day. One of my adult children is an Addict who thankfully is in Recovery (a Rehab program) right now. My daughter came into her addiction via a broken bone that had to have surgery and pins put in it. The surgeon gave her a “lovely”pain management prescription for Norcos. She got a 90 Day supply given to her by the surgeon, and then when she had taken all of them within the first month, the doctor authorized a refill… TWICE in that same 90 day time period.
When you take your wedding vows, you always hope that things are going to work out. However, in order to have a lasting marriage, you will likely have to face adversity and hardship together as a couple.
The movie New Jack City and various television shows give a very vivid picture of a crack house. They depict an abandoned building in a run-down neighborhood where people are dirty and lying on the floor. It implies that those who smoke cocaine disappear for days and live inside the filthy walls of this undesirable situation in order to get high. While that may be true in some cases, it is absolutely not the norm.
Cocaine, whether it is snorted, shot in the veins, or smoked from a pipe has a long lasting affects on the loved ones of addicts. I know a man who used to smoke crack, and he had a different ring tone for all of his buddies. When you were around him and certain ring tones went off, his demeanor changed. You could tell if it was a dealer, or a fellow addict trying to score. Years later after this man had cleaned himself up I would be in a store and hear a certain ring tone and recall his actions. I know a young woman who said that their cable was turned off many times when one of her parents was using cocaine. She was a teenager and would have to go to sleep listening to Mash on the local channel. Now decades later she says that whenever she hears the Mash theme song, those memories of not having cable TV come back, and the reason why.
Struggling with addictions is a stressful situation, since drugs expose you to health, social, and economic risks. Health-wise, for example, alcohol abuse poses risks such as hypertension, liver cirrhosis, as well as impotence. Socially, drugs tend to create a wall between you and your loved ones, thus affecting your relationships. Economically, you will require money to sustain a drug habit.
It's not the disease of drug addiction, it's the disease of ADDICTION.