We all have limits as to what we can handle. Once you reach that limit it's hard to say what happens. Feels like all I do is work hard applying for job after job. Working so hard without the proper sleep can be very difficult.
After getting the greatest blessing getting accepted into CSU, I noticed myself thinking how it's not easy to sleep in the student center without judgment. The sense of safety most people take for granted. I know because I used to be one of them.
So most people find it easier to take the easy way out running, and believe me I still feel that need to run when things become very difficult.
When wanting to run away the hardest in my situation is not having a place to run to. I know there are hard lessons I need to learn right now lawd knows that.
I don't want to know the hard lessons but they say hard lessons build character. I don't even know who said these things.
I feel like Job from the stories I read, my thoughts thinking what else are you going to throw onto me. I have been through so much, I know I wished things wouldn't come natural to me now I'm asking, "please universe let things come natural to me again."
I know by getting into pre-social work at CSU I did something right because the god blessed me.
But with the good comes bad, it's like there needs to be a balance it feels like.
The truth is, as most of us take things for granted when we lose them that's when everything we thing we know is put to the test.
So here is a list of what people take for granted, and why I believe is the reasoning for this. Please be advised there is some raw thoughts put into this:
1: A roof over our heads: Everyone takes advantage of this, and at the very most for granted. You don't know how many times I've heard in my experience for the last few weeks, I understand what you are going through. There is a difference between empathy and actually knowing.
For example, I have applied at so many places having zero luck because the shelter I am staying at is so infamous. I am rejected immediately for being hired somewhere.
2: A job: It has been so hard for me to find a job I have applied at literally 60 different places because of me staying at a infamous homeless shelter no one has been asking me for a second interview. This was until McDonald's tells me I have a second interview, and I called McDonald's on Euclid Ave getting a interview for 26th, April, 2023.
Writer disclaimer when I finish with this article posting it tomorrow, I hope that I have good news to write people.
3: Owning a Car: Anyone can take this for granted but I can't my only form of transportation as of now is the RTA bus transport, or a electric scooter that I'm to terrified to use right now.
Writer disclaimer my interview was today it was great, you are looking at the new Team Crew member at McDonald's. I'm so happy, but how do I balance a job and college? Ah, I will figure it out for myself.
4: When you have someone who relies on you: I can't stress how hard and how much pressure it is to feel this way. When you feel like the walls are closing in. You have someone you love who can't be by your side right now. The feeling on being anxious when you feel like you have to push yourself to stay sane. When the strength is inside of us.
So many people take these things for granted, so when they lose all of it makes it impossible to wonder what happens next. So just remember when you lose it all you can really tell who your family, and friends are. Sometimes our creator needs to help us mow the grass to show us what snakes are in the deep crevices.