WHY LORD?

The pain is so intense I can't stand to live but I keep fighting to go on

I keep telling myself and everyone that I'm so strong

Too scared to kill myself too scared to see what my future holds

It's just me Lord just me I am all alone and I hurt so bad so bad I just want to unfold

To escape the trauma of children that has had so much drama

Please God help me heal them heal them now

If YOU don't help me heal me now I'm lost in a world I can't control

I have a child that's on a 5150 hold

Does anyone understand to have a child whose been hurt so bad where I wasn't there to protect their innocence

I keep beating myself up why did I have to go to work and why did I not see

I tried to keep them from what was done to me

by running away to another state

I just ended up with a deadbeat dad who never cared

Why Lord why Lord is the million dollar question why Lord why?

I cried so much today he threatened my life so many times but he hurts so much he wishes he was dead

I pray for my children so much but it's just me who will protect me from my past I can't deal with this pain dear Lord how can I heal them how can I help them if I can't help me

Why Lord a person unlovable told I shouldn't been born put down so much I thought everything about me was wrong

Why Lord?

Bless me now maybe I can help my children maybe I will laugh maybe they will love laugh hold feel again without medication or drink the pain away the past will never go away but take the pain away so we can live again

Why Lord why?