While I: A Poem of ADHD
A Day In the Mind of ADHD
My mind scatters off
Excited.
Checking my email, while I
Listen to a conference call, while I
Look up How-to videos on Youtube, while I
Continue all those text conversations, while I
Check flight prices and departure times, while I
Inquire about green energy options, while I
Hunt for a specific photo in my collection, while I
See if my blog theme update caused a problem.
You ask me if I need more coffee.
I say I’ll get some in a minute.
My mind feels motivated.
Determined.
Following up on that voicemail, while I
Start a new blog post, while I
Plan out recipes for my cookbook, while I
Read about camera settings, while I
Look up how to monetize my blog, while I
Order a replacement pair of running shoes, while I
Tell myself we need to save more, while I
Remember I need to work out today, while I
Make an appointment for the dog, while I
Forget all about the coffee.
You ask me if you can help.
Ahh, no, hun, I got it.
My mind is in a rhythm.
Productive.
I respond to Slack messages, while I
Browse Zillow for properties, while I
Look on Amazon for camera parts, while I
Finish the last of my tasks for work, while I
Send my resume to another job opening, while I
Request work quotes from contractors, while I
Bring my laptop to the kitchen to prep dinner, while I
Tell my wife she just needs to follow through, while I
Reconsider my cooking videos again, while I
Decide to mow the lawn.
You said you were going to mow the lawn.
It’s okay, hun, I got it.
My mind is feeling guilty.
Unproductive.
My cookbook still isn't finished, while I
Can't get more blog posts done, while I
Can't get the cooking videos right, while I
Watch our debts increase, while I
Hope I make more money at the next job, while I
Wonder if I'll always work in corporate, while I
Hope my step-daughter is happy, while I
Clean the kitchen again, while I
Listen to a video about replacing flooring, while I
Wish I could go play tennis, while I
Question if I'll need to take care of my dad, while I
Take the dog for a walk, while I
Listen to more videos about productivity.
You ask me if you can do anything for me.
No, hun, it's okay, I'm fine.
I didn't get enough done today.
It's all unfinished.
The uneasiness builds.
I drown in my phone, while I
Respond to texts, while I
Check my email, while I
Watch TikTock, while I
Comment on Facebook, while I
Look at Instagram, while I
Drift asleep.
Wake.
Get going.
I have to keep going.
You ask if you can help.
I got it, hun. I'll do it.
While I,
Do it all.
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Comments (3)
Lol, you gotta breathe. But seriously, being this way can be so exhausting!
Well well well.. wow. You are certainly not alone in this!
This is quite good, although while I think that this is nice, and while I have been caught in the midst of working from home... I am awake laughing happy and impressed. ;)