I work so hard
On this ring.
I use what materials I can:
A wooden pendant I bought for myself
A long time ago;
R's drill, though I'm probably using it wrong;
Ripped up shreds of emery paper
From a dissected nail file
Because I can't afford sandpaper.
I break and lose things--
A chipped ceramic knife that I toss in the garbage,
A cylindrical metal piece from the toolbox
That I don't even know the name of
Rolls off the balcony into oblivion--
Sacrificial offerings to my clumsy process of trial and error.
I hyperfixate on it, perhaps too much.
In every free and idle moment,
I'm attentively shaping the wood,
Hurdling mishaps in stride
When the drill whirrs to a stop with a drained battery,
Or when every emery paper scrap
Is beyond used up.
She buys me sandpaper sponges,
Which I rip up and which make things a lot easier.
I apologize for getting frustrated sometimes.
"So many things I've tried to do for you this year
Fell through.
This can't be one of those things."
She assures me that it's ok,
Although she did confiscate the ring today temporarily
So that I would give her attention.
Ultimately, it's just a ring,
A material object worth only the value assigned to it,
But it's all I can do as far as an engagement ring.
I must remember that my time with her
Is more valuable than anything I could give to her
Or make for her;
We missed each other so sorely for those months
Last winter.
It feels like a lifetime ago.
I'm still going to work on it
When she's away working.
Her body is sensitive, so
I want it to feel alright on her finger.
I shaped it to fit her left ring finger perfectly;
She felt warm when I slipped the unfinished ring
On her hand for reference and she realized that.
About the Creator
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I bide my time between the reason and the rhyme,
Trying to sort the seasons and the signs.
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