The ugly truth of loving you.
The painful truth of falling in love with an addict who has made the decision not to change.
Leaves are burnt orange and falling delicately from the trees
As I drive carefully from the drug store
The song comes on that once made me feel empty
But now makes me feel whole but still lost
Long way around booms on repeat but the words are soft
An ugly truth you’ve hidden
The truth behind addicts
Behind drugs
A fairytale that could never be
A happy ending that could never possibly exist
A love who is sick and doesn’t want the help
And me crying to myself that I wish it could be different
A choice you’ve made
A heart that is broken
Flash backs to a loving phone call where you were still terrified
And you never stopped being scared
I didn’t know about the drugs
I had no clue
You wanted me to see you and still that’s all I see
Because you’ve fought so hard to keep a lot or maybe just most of the ugly truth from me
I’m giggling on the phone as I say as confidently as I could
But still as pure
Do you think we’ll end up together?
You said I don’t know we never met
Which was true, you had to keep the ugly truth. The bitter lie hidden.
I say sweetly and I felt so honest at the time
I know we will
I have this feeling
And I knew you were for me
I knew I wanted
Needed
Craved
Loved
You
I knew you were the one
Until lies start to come to light
The truth spills over and consumes our bond
Toxic shock waves run through your mind and into my skin
Love that was pure turns deranged
Drugs have created a home I’m not invited to
And have taken your life that I’m not free to join
It wasn’t true
You knew you felt the same
You knew it was me
You knew you saw this future with me
You never saw before
But staring at you with veins pulsing through it’s bright red face was the ugly truth
Drugs is your soulmate
Not me
About the Creator
Tracy Rose
Just a survivor and her writings. ❤️
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