feeling suffocated
-g a s p-choke-
breathing...restricted
-incapacitated-weak-
terminally...asphyxiated
-blue-faced-s e l f-denial-
g a s p i n g for air
-loosen the noose-choke-
grasping for care
-reaching out-losing my grip-
broken on the floor
-shell-like-worm-like-
hurting continually
-cyclical-phases-
anguishing subliminally
-pent-up-push down-
betraying mortality
-give-up-choke-
accepting my fate
-darkened shadow-grim reality-
*
Thanks for reading!
Author's Notes: I could go deep and explain all this. But really. I'll let my words speak for themselves. Also...tried to make it look something or other.
Here are some others:
About the Creator
Paul Stewart
Scottish-Italian poet/writer from Glasgow.
Overflowing in English language torture and word abuse.
"Every man has a sane spot somewhere" R.L Stevenson
The Accidental Poet - Poetry Collection is now available!
https://paulspoeticprints.etsy.com
Enjoyed the story? Support the Creator.
Subscribe for free to receive all their stories in your feed. You could also pledge your support or give them a one-off tip, letting them know you appreciate their work.
Keep reading
More stories from Paul Stewart and writers in Poets and other communities.
I want to grow
I want to grow and I’m going to grow. I’m not going to be this version of myself anymore and you won’t know who I become. You won’t talk to her, or be by her side as she goes through life— you won’t know her. Her heart won’t even remember the small moments that’ve clung to it for so long. I’ll watch her embrace a new life that has nothing to do with you, and there won’t be a space waiting like there has been for far too long.
By Aathavi Thanges4 days ago in Psyche
Comments (7)
So bruatally raw enthralling. Are you doing okay though?
Bloody good wordcraft!
Cyclical phases really stands out here.
Betraying mortality, I really loved that line. Hope you're okay Sir Paul 🥺 Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️
I like this a lot, but I’m not sure I fully understand it. I caught what I assume are clues behind the intent - gasping for air … grasping for care perhaps referencing the choice to suffer in silence or reach out for help. As well as anguishing subliminally and the more specific pent-up-push down - pent up emotions versus pushing the down/hiding them. I’m sure there is much more, but I need the Paul Stewart Rosetta Stone to learn more.
Thee & me both, my friend. Yep, I feel this deeply.
So much despair and longing. I felt anguish and alone while reading this.