Seeker
a poem
I've sought approval
that I've never found.
Wasted so much time,
digging my heels in the ground.
Sure that if only I had validation,
with ease I'd fly on that praise, admiration.
If only, I'd think,
this all would be better.
Open and honest,
your pain left unfettered.
If only you'd've told me
I was worthwhile
even without clawing
that long extra mile.
That I don't have to
win gold or prizes of kings.
That I don't need rubies
or unbreakable rings.
That I, as I am, am exactly enough.
But your insides like your out,
wind broken and rough.
When my heart broke
from you or the rest,
where were you
as I ached in my chest?
When it burned and scalded
as I fought for my breath?
Hoping for that good word,
but always left wanting.
Thinking of that pain now,
overwhelming and daunting.
To think of little me,
alone in her room.
The quiet and dark,
rivaling a tomb.
Don't be too loud.
Don't be too big.
There's too much going on
for you to stand out.
Stay the course, little Mare,
as you steer the ship south.
...
Now to be grown and judged
by my own choices and wins.
Not by those of before me,
on their faults and their sins.
To see myself now and think,
"Hey, look at you go,"
can mean the whole world
as I grow up and glow.
I like this tattoo kissing my skin--
its blooms a reminder of
the places I've been.
The versions I've been,
who I am,
who I was.
Never too old to call it quits.
Leave those doubts behind,
that I'm a blunder or blip.
I know that heartbreak
guided your ways,
but I have given you grace after grace.
I needed something that I never got.
I sought
and
I sought
and
I sought.
...
But I never found it,
and now I will seek no more.
About the Creator
Merrie Sanders
Writing for fun and as an escape from the everyday. After all, what is life for if not to create?
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Nice story
Sad and real. A well-deserved Top Story!
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Oh this is heartbreaking. I wish you had gotten praise. I praise you now for moving on and no longer seeking acceptance. You are your own acceptance!! Congrats on TS.💓
People nowadays are really stressed so this is all for you https://vocal.media/poets/wings-of-resilience-a-journey-through-adversity
Well deserved, congrats 🎉
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Newly subscribed! Congratulations on your top story which led me to discovering your creations!
Congrats!
What a piece of poetry! I read it out loud as all poetry should, so even the walls could have the chance to shake. Congrats, Ms Sanders : )
Congrats on Top Story!🥳🥳🥳
congratulations on TS. this really makes us looked deep in our souls to see if maybe we're the ones who are doing the ignoring. very well done.
Congratulations on top story!
Merrie, you have raw talent for writing poetry. You have such a way with words and your work flows so nicely. Beautiful work here!
Congratulations 🎉🎉🎉🎉 on top story Your passion is contagious. Keep pursuing your dreams with unwavering dedication.
Excellently raw, congrats on the top story