r e l e a s e

h e a v i n e s s

embedded

d e e p

into my

b o n e s

i t s

presence

went

u n n o t i c e d

until

I

s t a r e d

into my

s o u l

I

tried to

p u r g e

i t

from

my

c o r e

to

u n t a n g l e

from

i t s

c l a s p

but the

s h a d o w

was a

part of

M e

wound

t i g h t l y

in

M y

g r a s p

I

wanted to

d e f e a t

it

but

I

was

a d d i c t e d

to

i t s

h o l d

what

w o u l d

I

do

w i t h o u t

i t

w i t h o u t

the

s t o r y

that

i t

t o l d

it

became

c l e a r

I

needed to

d e m o l i s h

the

c o n c e p t s

that

I

built

c o n s t r u c t e d

illusory

i d e o l o g y

started

t o p p l i n g

prefab

{I} d e n t i t i e s

began to

w i l t

I

s t r u g g l e d

in

r e l e a s e

but

i

k n e w

i

had to

e x p e l

it

to be

f r e e

i

loosened

my

g r i p

and

{s...l...o...w...l...y}

l e t

g o

as

h e a v i n e s s

~~~e v a p o r a t e d ~~~

out of

me

t o x i c

weight

that

I’d

been

c a r r y i n g

d i s s o l v e d

revealing

the

p o i s o n

it

had been

an

e x p a n s e

opened

in my

h e a r t

and

l o v e

began to

f i l t e r

in

that

p a r t

of

me

i' d

h e l d

so

t i g h t l y

took up

s p a c e

where

p e a c e

could

t h r i v e

l i g h t n e s s

flooded

every

f i b e r

and

i

finally

k n e w

the

p o w e r

of

R E L E A S I N G

to

t r u l y

b e

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