Ode To My Missing Pieces
Think about it! We are clays. Not that we wanted to be, but conformity and social norms seize us with their magnetic strategies to belong, beloved, or any positive to be's we take the form of whichever society and box we are trying to fit into. Yet, many of us believe that we can be true to ourselves. Not that I am saying no, but to what self? The self that takes any form it has been given? The self that leaves pieces aside to transform into the shape on-trend? And this thought got me thinking, and here I am dedicating this little poem to myself.
Ode to the missing pieces of me
those fallen from broken ships
and drown deep down the sea
and their little tiny one left behind
in relations-ship, friends-ship
so many ships that even I cannot recall
how close they and I used to be.
Pieces that I let go of to fit in
pieces that I exchanged, to be loved
pieces that I reject for claps
pieces that I let stain for clouts
pieces that I bleach, seeking holiness
pieces that I hid, for their ugliness
all these pieces were lost and never found
pieces that I gave to people
and they did not give back none.
Pieces of me being the best of me
handed carelessly as I got lost in a fantasy
as even I couldn't see them worthy
so many missing pieces of me that sometimes
I cannot help but wonder who I should be
yes, most will find it easy asking me to be myself
but how could I, while incomplete?
To be or not to be, that was never the question for me
for as long as I remember, I was taught how I should be
be nice they say, be friendly they say, be pure they say
read your bible they say, oh no, don't dare think this way
you shouldn't feel this way; it's tradition, okay!
And I tried to stand with conformity and follow the norms
I walked a path that was not my own
walked so many miles without a known purpose
Along the way, I crossed rivers but never swam
drank so many sips of water, I became a puddle of tears
I held so many beacons but yet I felt darkness around me.
Ode to the missing pieces of me
those broken as I tried to fit those narrow hallways
pieces of me that ran away from me
as they and I were grown apart
pieces of me such as feelings, deep asleep
dead in their coma
pieces of me that I left under love's doormat.
To all these missing pieces,
without which
I just cannot be.
I am a product of my society
with so many labels
that it is hard for me to learn
about this person who once used to be
"true self"
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