The night time and all that comes with it is the hardest time for me,
and for some reason,
it isn't until the morning that I can find peace and comfort within the night.
Adapting to the darkness is terrifying
when you're lonely, and depressed, and paranoid.
Now tell me- how am I supposed to return
to being discontent in the darkness to start my day
after hours of learning to settle in it?
Finally the sun rises.
And I learn that there was nothing in the closet or on the roof.
The thoughts I had were being over thought.
I hear the birds chirping peacefully.
I see the soft sun start to rise surrounded by white, fluffy clouds.
I smell my mother's coffee brewing downstairs
as I watch her cigarette smoke rise up into the baby blue sky.
But suddenly, although I found peace, the light is too overwhelming,
and my cat is cuddling me,
and I'm comfortable now.
So I shut my curtains,
turn off the lights,
silence my phone,
and pass out feeling high off of the disrupting and exhausting, toxic cycle that I'm going to repeat again.
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