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standing still

By Heather HublerPublished 2 months ago Updated 2 months ago 2 min read
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sometimes i feel numb to it all.

i see life whirring by

in moving pictures,

scenes zipping past.

everything's a blur

while i'm standing still

in the middle...

and i feel nothing.

the colors are muted,

the sounds–muffled and choked.

all the good stuff has fallen

out of frame.

i can't move,

or i don't want to.

not sure i can tell the difference.

no one seems to notice

that i've stopped.

that i can't keep up.

i stand there silently screaming,

hoping someone hears me,

but no words come out.

it's like i've gone mute

and the world is deaf.

i'm not in focus,

just a blip on the peripherals

as life speeds along.

would anyone recognize the signs

of a life slowly fading?

i'm still smiling, laughing,

playing the chauffeur,

doing the laundry,

the shopping, the dishes,

making meals and donations,

going to doctor's appointments,

picking up meds, paying bills,

and running and running and running, etc.

life feels like one big et cetera.

my technicolor's fading from the inside out.

the hues are sun-bleached from age and abuse,

in shades of sepia and gray.

they dig into my skin

as the numbness bruises.

but i paint over all the ugly

leaving haphazard brush strokes,

one, two, three...twenty coats.

like new, i pretend,

but the damage shows.

no one sees it though.

no one takes the time to look.

all the people flashing along

in their own lives

never suspecting a thing,

while i'm standing still,

a pale imitation gone numb.


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  • Audrey Heitz2 months ago

    Ohhh....you touched my heart with your words. 🥺 Beautifully written, Heather. I want to be more aware of how people are REALLY feeling and hope and pray I'll be "there" for them. Such an important subject. Thank you.

  • You capture the current human condition very well. "When will it slow down so I can get off and be who I truly am?" I often wonder. And I wonder if others wonder. Nice poem, Heather - Anneliese:)

  • Talia Devora2 months ago

    Nicely penned! As someone who struggles with mental illness and autism, this poem is relatable to me. Please check out an excerpt for my first poetry book, which was published last year! https://vocal.media/poets/excerpt-from-up-and-down-the-ladder

  • Atomic Historian2 months ago

    Thank you. It's like you somehow reached inside of me, and pulled out everything I've felt since November

  • Brenton F2 months ago

    Like trying to run in quicksand and not even raising a pulse! We are legion!

  • Shannon Loewen2 months ago

    Beautifully written. I found myself relating to a lot of it. Thank you for sharing <3

  • Reviews2 months ago

    Comfortably Numb!

  • Muhammad Naveed2 months ago

    wow so beautiful here is my first on Vocal https://vocal.media/poets/sensual-sway

  • B2 months ago

    “life feels like one big et cetera.“ What I’ve been struggling to put in words for the past few years, described in this one simple phrase. Thank you for sharing this.

  • Hannah2 months ago

    This poem conveys a powerful message about the importance of recognizing and addressing our own mental health needs. It speaks to the experience of feeling lost and alone, even while surrounded by the demands of daily life. Through its vivid imagery and sensory language, the poem encourages us to take a step back, to slow down and prioritize our own well-being, even when it feels like the world won't stop spinning.

  • Meg2 months ago

    Great poem! Congrats on top story!

  • The Dani Writer2 months ago

    That line, "Life feels like one big et cetera." Nailed it! A masterful translation of overwhelming experience of many transmuted into poetic form. Top Story and Life Story. Well done!

  • Grz Colm2 months ago

    Good one! Thanks for sharing Heather. 😊

  • Tiffany Gordon 2 months ago

    I see you...I hear you... babygurl. A beautifully penned piece. Hoping & Praying that things brighten around your way very very soon. Sending a hug your way!🙏🏾Congrats on your Top Story my friend!

  • C. H. Richard2 months ago

    So relatable. Love this line, " my technicolor is fading from inside our." Expresses so many emotions right there. ♥️ Well done! Congratulations on your top story.♥️

  • Compassion ✨❤️💯😉Congratulations Heather🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

  • Nicely done 👌. Congratulations for the top story.

  • Dana Stewart2 months ago

    Congratulations on Top Story!

  • top7best72 months ago

    Thanks, I enjoyed reading the most beautiful poem, it made me feel the numbness of life

  • Diani Alvarenga2 months ago

    Congrats on top story! ❤️ also this line hit me a lot!“i stand there silently screaming, hoping someone hears me, but no words come out. it's like i've gone mute”

  • Rene Peters2 months ago

    I love the story! Also, congrats on your top story! As I'm sitting here, in that place, it makes me feel slightly less alone. Thank you for that.

  • Loryne Andawey2 months ago

    Congratulations on your Top Story!!!

  • Kristen Balyeat2 months ago

    Loved reading this again! Congrats on top story- so deserved!

  • Cathy holmes2 months ago

    and there she goes again. Congrats on the well deserved TS, my friend.

  • R. J. Rani2 months ago

    Congratulations, on another amazing Top Story, Heather! I read it again, and it's just as impactful ❤️

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