I see the appeal

I am not a cutter

though I see the appeal

of driving a sharp object in or across

to let the pain and sadness flow freely

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I am not an alcoholic

though I see the appeal

of drinking soo much that lightens everything

and allows me a break from my thoughts, fears, anxieties, and emotions

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I am not a methhead, crackhead, or junkie

though I see the appeal

of taking those chemical hits

letting them course through me, then bliss

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I am not a killer

though I see the appeal

of hunting down the truly awful of society

to pierce their flesh and let their wretchedness seep out

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I am not the saviour

I am not even a good person often enough

When I go to sleep

Sometimes I wish I didn't wake up

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Thanks for reading!