I’m In Love Again

I’m in love again, but he’ll never know

I’m an excellent actress so he’ll never know

How I dream of him, night and day

We are friends now and that is how we will remain

I am careful about how much I say

I am careful to never be alone with him

He must never get not even one hint

Of my true feelings, not one single bit

I carry this secret deep in my heart

I will love him in silence, this is my task

I try to let him know how lost I am

I try to get him to understand that

I’m a bit crazy and sad

Sometimes I think I should distance myself

Sometimes I think I should disappear from his world

It’s a bit like torture to want someone and not want someone

He is one of many men who show up at different points in my life

I think they are here to test me, to see what I will do

I have left those tests behind, no more games for me

I will not hurt anyone else, no matter how much I feel for them

I love that I am love, but I know that this love is for me and for me only

It will live and grow and die inside of me without it ever being revealed

I am in love again, but I will not love him