haiku september five

talk about music

talking about what you love

reminds me to love

. . . [9/24/23]

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let it out of you

it seems to really matter

it makes it better

. . . [9/24/23]

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not quite all better

but you're more on the way

and that is better

. . . [9/24/23]

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let go of some - yeah

see what that feels like - ok

time will tell if so

. . . [9/24/23]

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i like it so far

freer in a way, i think

we'll see if it sticks

. . . [9/24/23]

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a nice place to sit

relative to other spots

this is top of list

. . . [9/24/23]

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make a different push

you know the feel of not quite

so try this way now

. . . [9/24/23]

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to design, to make

to create from what's inside

to be yourself, full

. . . [9/24/23]

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what will you regret

i want it to have made sense

even if missed some

. . . [9/24/23]

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not giving myself

a full chance, i used to say

that won't happen now

. . . [9/24/23]

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this is this now and

that will be that and that's fine

noticing moments

. . . [9/25/23]

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i like them open

the windows for the air, space

open the bubble

. . . [9/25/23]

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water on the boil

for the tea and soft boiled eggs

regular morning

. . . [9/25/23]

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spent some time looking

before making any marks

observing first, then ...

. . . [9/25/23]

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feeling good today

just a little discomfort

will focus on good

. . . [9/25/23]

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i'm on my lunch break

what a thing - just walk away

it's just some me time

. . . [9/25/23]

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not all are ok

some are close - but some don't know

so we all take care

. . . [9/25/23]

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what's gonna happen

for sure there will be dying

and we will miss them

. . . [9/25/23]

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some things we don't say

it's a practice of caring

it's a calm practice

. . . [9/25/23]

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oh so many yawns

tired today but glad up

early up feels nice

. . . [9/26/23]

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almost end of sept

all the years really fly by

all these years gone by

. . . [9/26/23]

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sitting with head back

just relax and enjoy this

because this is this

. . . [9/26/23]

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still pretty quiet

that's an advantage to now

slowly more sound comes

. . . [9/26/23]

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oh this is quite nice

more time equals more freedom

more freedom to move

. . . [9/26/23]

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is "freedom" a mess

i mean as a concept; fraught

we mean different things

. . . [9/26/23]

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maybe never same

just not bad enough to know

we thought we all knew

. . . [9/26/23]

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so we live our lives

and have experiences

so much not the same

. . . [9/26/23]

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what do you mean here

and what do you mean right there

and can we agree

. . . [9/26/23]

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end of september

closing twenty twenty three

ok, there's some time

. . . [9/26/23]

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going in to 'bers

i heard that term recently

i sort of like it

. . . [9/26/23]

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the 'bers are cold months

for this northern hemisphere

so that's sort of fun

. . . [9/26/23]

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we sit there and here

good places for morning tea

let's keep up the good

. . . [9/26/23]

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still quiet, that's nice

nice, nice, nice, nice, nice, nice, nice

that's what i call it

. . . [9/26/23]

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i am so tired

kept waking up all last night

thinking it was time

. . . [9/27/23

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almost end of month

getting nearer and nearer

time moves on and on

. . . [9/27/23]

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what does it matter

just marks that you bump up on

it matters or not

. . . [9/27/23]

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coming to fourteen

we've been together for that

i wouldn't have thought

. . . [9/27/23]

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i figured, no way

why would anybody stay

i got over that

. . . [9/27/23]

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trying not to care

is caring less really it

just don't get so mad

. . . [9/27/23]

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always practicing

practicing to stay calmed down

just stay floating here

. . . [9/27/23]

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now it's someone else

everyone will go some day

we all get our time

. . . [9/28/23]

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now's the time between

if you're reading this it's yours

your time inbetween

. . . [9/28/23]

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'better when you're here

it's sort of flat when you're gone

already miss you

. . . [9/28/23]

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i know you're back soon

int'resting these differences

better when you're here

. . . [9/28/23]

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good to be alone

i know we both like that too

more fun when both here

. . . [9/28/23]

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so you'll take this drive

i hope it's a good visit

good luck to you all

. . . [9/28/23]

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life is just hap'ning

it's exactly what it does

we're just part of it

. . . [9/28/23]

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glad you're part of mine

i'm sure glad i'm part of yours

we'll see what comes next

. . . [9/28/23]

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i'm gonna cry here

because that's what's coming out

it's just what's coming

. . . [9/28/23]

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crying here for you

not really for you, of you

expressing your size

. . . [9/28/23]

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[those last 2 "fought" to come out at once - that hadn't happened to me before. that was interesting. these moments are powerful - and haiku has been a lovlely and powerful focuser for me. and it's been great . . . so this sort of race to get out of me - this parallel output for this moment, these moments because they are powerful is beautiful. speacial. words don't cut it. but i try.]

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this time is for you

specially heald now and now

i love you so much

. . . [9/28/23]

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i know we'll all leave

but somehow it's not easy

but wait! it's not yet

. . . [9/28/23]

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how are you doing

you might not even know now

or now or now or

. . . [9/28/23]

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thank you for your love

'feels good to be loved by you

i like loving you

. . . [9/28/23]

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i still can't believe

wait! yes, yes, oh yes i can

you helped me believe

. . . [9/28/23]

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i am different now

and it's time i accept it

i just realized how

. . . [9/28/23]

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i'll let that shit go

i'll make it 'til i make it

won't you join me now

. . . [9/28/23]

so it sits in you

it wasn't there then it was

i am so sorry

. . . [9/28/23]

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i guess all things grow

and all life keeps moving on

and we are all parts

. . . [9/28/23]

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i am stunned by you

i didn't get you before

but now, i'm closer

. . . [9/28/23]

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he dies means she dies

means you die means we all die

so how do we move

. . . [9/28/23]

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and we will all die

and we don't know now but guess

here we are right now

. . . [9/28/23]

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and this is now, now

your now and my now - and now

and now and now - and

. . . [9/28/23]

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i am at a loss

and that is just part of life

and so we'll just be

. . . [9/28/23]

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i think we thought more

but, we don't really know now

so - we'll just breathe now

[be]

. . . [9/28/23]

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what is right now like

and now and now and now and

you are the sweetest

. . . [9/28/23]

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but how about now

i hope you sleep well tonight

this night is this night

. . . [9/28/23]

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i love you so much

you have been so good to me

so glad to know you

. . . [9/28/23]

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this is what it is

land and sea and the offing

and me just being

. . . [9/29/23]

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it's less distraction

and more just pure receiving

or something like that

. . . [9/29/23]

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some people on SUPS

some people surf, walk or sit

some don't even come

. . . [9/29/23]

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i'm glad i came

why close my eyes to this now

this is pure being

. . . [9/29/23]

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i'm gonna fight less

with myself and with others

let way more move through

. . . [9/29/23]

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this is pretty great

to be able to do this

we make some choices

. . . [9/29/23]

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she said rain's coming

clouds a mix of grey and white

thick and pillowy

. . . [9/29/23]

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he's going home now

been working hard to get strong

happy homecoming

. . . [9/29/23]

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i know, but still do

i fight it all so damn hard

and then i feel bad

. . . [9/30/23]

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it's all right in front

or am i missing one thing

or is that fomo

. . . [9/30/23]

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ok now i know

and it really is just that

so let's be care-ful

. . . [9/30/23]

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so i'll practice care

i do already - but more

i know what to do

. . . [9/30/23]

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i love you so much

you've helped m to say 'yes' to me

that saves me daily

. . . [9/30/23]

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gonna see The Beat

i think they are my fav'rit

it is about time

. . . [9/30/23]

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a lot of thoughts about many different people i love. settling into letting those feelings be. through knowing we will go, and that they will go we can reconnect to how much they mean to us and the everyday becomes more salient. more meaninful. or somesuch. and then to end the week with seeing the (english) beat! well - that was wonderful.

i mean to share these on sudays (weekly) and i just don't always get to it - so pardon a bit of pile up, if you're following -- i appreciate it. now i'm caught up : )

thank you for reading! -- i hope you're well. -- kory

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