Fleeting Fragments
She is nowhere but within her own cosmos. Until she isn’t.
It is only a fragment of thought
A splinter, a glimmering shard
Of a maybe-memory from a maybe-life
Perhaps forgotten and shut away so here remains bearable
It is of afternoon sun and swaying, budding branches
Lemon and salt, strong on my tastebuds
The sound of fiddles and the murmur of an upbeat crowd
Coarse grass under my pressed palms
And the face of her, unnamed and joyous
Hair the color of obsidian
Eyes of swirling starlight
Hairline scar serpentined across her left cheek
An underscore
Always anonymous
Always blazing into my core
Always beaming with her certainty
It takes my breath away
An energy I can’t place rushes upwards and consumes
She is real
She is fire
She is someone
…somewhere else
Always somewhere else
Never to intersect with this emaciated world in which I reside
I see her in dreams and drunkenness
A compass of daydreams
Hidden in highway lines
In looping hold music
In churning shadows on my bedroom ceiling
The moments that linger between breaths belong to her
Although I have never seen her
Although I have never heard her voice
Although I have never felt her touch
I know her love
And it is in this warmth I live to search
Desperate to spot her in shuffling crowds
Languishing checkout lines
Melancholic commutes
Solemn church pews
Overfiltered social posts
Like some unobtainable being
Peer of Calypso and Nyx
She is the owner of my someday
The sole key of my rest
Yet she is nowhere but within her own cosmos
Until she isn’t
And upon a street corner, scanning crowds for her, I hear a heavy collision of metal and flesh
The screaming of a child witness
The screeching of a rusted taxi
I see her feet first
She is exactly as I’ve seen her so many times
But instead of an underscore scar
Splashes of scarlett spread over her
Instead of a sunny, windy afternoon
Grave-shaded concrete is her background
Instead of fiddles
Screams and sirens
You, I say
You, she says
Her eyes, wide with a familiar, scalding stare
And there, I see it, right there in an instant
Her coincided searching, seeking, longing
She spotted me first, across the raging boulevard
As my scanning eyes glazed over my saughtafter spark
Maybe where I failed my search, she succeeded
Maybe if I had noticed her, I could’ve take the hit
Maybe her life of vibrancy could’ve continued
My universe of maybes is born
The fiery love I’ve felt for a vision exploded
If only for a moment of flashing brightness
Not fate, but cruel serendipity
Our quivering eyes lock
My breath becomes weak and rapid
As she breathes her last
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