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Deep in a state of despair
Emotional eating, urges to binge creeping up
Pressing thoughts to use a blade
Repressed feelings consuming me
Everlasting numbness
Stressed beyond belief
Spiraling deep into a neverending cycle
Everlasting ruminating thoughts
Destroyed by the everpresent negative thoughts
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I've been struggling with depression and negative thoughts. I was talking to Mother Combs and she suggested writing a poem. I had no idea how to because of struggling with incoherent thoughts and she gave an example of an acrostic. Some of the letters are inspired by hers but none are plagiarized. I know you're reading this so thank you Mother Combs for the idea.
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Rene Peters
I write what I know, usually in the form of poetry. I tend to lean towards mental health, epilepsy, and loss/grieving.
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Comments (23)
Yes writing is an expression to relieve depression . I have been there
Thank you for being vulnerable. I truly believe writing, specifically poetry, sets us free. Glad you shared. And glad I came across your poem
I do Feel your structure here is a great way to release the tension and fears we all sometimes get during High stress situations, and especially being in a depressed state. Very emotional and well done
OK, I agree, you get the Weedan. That word is such a little bugger to us all these days, but dance with the Weedan and blow the blues away. Hope you afre feeling much better.
You need a Weedan, Rene. Excellent poem. Hope that expressing your feelings have helped you. I think getting it out there always helps. Stay strong.
Beautiful, heartfelt pros. Excellent styling.
You’re a beautiful person and a beautiful writer!
Great idea! Always good to write about it!! 😊👏
Amazing poem Writing can work as a therapy to express your feelings. Keep expressing and sharing with us!!! Congratulations
The picture drew me in first; it is the embodiment of what I felt when I was deeply depressed. The emotion in your poem is raw and haunting, lyrically beautiful in a special way. Congratulations on the Top Story.
I feel this deeply. The catharsis of writing can not be downplayed. Mother Combs gave great advice
Well done; I understand completely. It's been a dark few weeks for me, and having the outlet of writing has definitely helped. Stick with it, it's definitely cathartic and keeps the mind out of places it shouldn't go. Please reach out if you need to.
Glad to hear that you're listening to Mother Combs I hope that writing was cathartic in a way x Very stark and well crafted poem, congratulations on top story 🤍🤍🤍
I'm very glad that you shared your feelings and got such great advice. I hope that writing and sharing this helped relieve that pressure and those urges. You aren't alone- even though it feels that way at times, i know.
As a former self harmer, I can surely agree with what she told you. Writing is an actual form of therapy and has helped me immensely over the years. Really good job. I hope you find some peace. Breathe. 🩵 Hurting yourself won't actually make anything better. Also congrats on your top story.
This is really well done. I'm glad you took the advice and got some feelings out. I hope it helps in some way. Congrats on the TS.
Beautifully expressed, Rene! Life can be so difficult, and I’m so happy Mother Combs encouraged you to write–it can be so healing to get your feelings out. We are here for you, cheering you on, and sending lots of love in your direction! 💫💞🙏🏽
Beautiful poem, Rene. Keep your chin up :)
Oh so relatable, Rene. This really is beautifully written, hope you feel a bit better soon though. Thank you for sharing this and congrats on Top Story!
Pressing thoughts to use a blade. I struggle with that the most. Your poem was very relatable and I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I hope writing this made you feel better. So grateful to Mother Combs for giving you this idea. Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️
Awesome acoustic poem!!! Sending virtual hugs!!!💕❤️❤️
Rene, I hope writing this poem made you feel better. I sure liked this poem.
Hugs, I hope it helps. Your poem is fantastic!