10 seconds to live

Once before you die you get one last chance when you can relive your life, your last few minutes when you close your eyes. Your soul calms down, and your heart slows down, your mind is falling asleep. It's a final countdown, or rather a cooldown, before a completely new starting? This game is confusing... 10 seconds to live... I see myself being born... my parents are crying. These are tears of joy, but they don't know nothing about how I will dissapoint 'em I don't deserve them... 9 seconds till death... I'm already a kid playing around in the garden with Suzy, my only and favorite dog. She passed away and never returned to make me smile again. I was probably ten... 8 seconds to remember... my teenage years so memorable. Yes, we were dumb and spontanious. We threw parties and got drunk, after, we drove a cool truck First love... sweeter than ever, like wind chimes play a song so special. We travelled a lot, built sandcastles, sent postcards to all the family members We laughed: "That's all that matters!" 7 seconds to regret... We grew up together but things got bad I was left behind It was just me and I. Only had my body not my soul. I felt empty chasing fun I could never get back So I drank more and more I wanted alcohol. It wasn't me anymore, just a doll... 6 seconds to rethink... I found myself on the streets. Sound of sirens muffled in the distance. I lost everything... 5 seconds to wait... It's bitterly cold I'm still breathing but it gets harder and harder to keep going I don't know how much time I have left before I freeze to death. 4 seconds to forgive... My tears are turning on my cheeks into ice It's too late for me... I realise that all I feel is weakness and cold. I'm starving, haven't eaten for days... whatever... It's over for me. 3 seconds for hope... I slowly close my eyes, I start to pray in my misery. It's something I learned years ago When I was a kid... We sat at the table I remember with mum and dad... we were grateful for what we had... 2 seconds to pray... "Dear God! I know I'm helpless I can't fix my life... Still I'm begging you, one last time, please forgive me, and send someone who'd look after me. Someone who'd kneel down at my grave and say: "I miss you" My Lord, I'm hearing you calling and I won't resist, not now... I have nothing to leave behind, not even a normal life I take the second chance you're giving me... hope it'll never end..." One last second to say goodbye... It's time to leave I'm going home, towards the sky! Written for Poppy's February Prompt: