Ilusion turn to dust

It was this young and naive girl who thought love was as innocent and pure as in the movies she loved so much.

No one could ever make her see otherwise, and through her eyes men were thinking like her. She could never imagine otherwise. All men were gentlemen when in love with a girl. No, no one could ever make her change her idea, if they tried they were just pragmatic fools that have lost their faith in love.

This girl with such big dreams of love, being so beautiful and innocent as only fairytales could be, met someone who she thought was her prince. In the movies, the man was always protective, caring, selfless and this was how she "saw' him. Not knowing that we only see in others what is already in us, good or bad. Not knowing that she saw herself in him and her innocence, not his. He did not have it...

This naive, innocent girl insisted so much to have this man, that she succeeded. This was the death of her beautiful world. The dark and the death that this man loved, astonished her and hurt her deeply. To the point of losing hope and faith in the good and purity in people.

Yes, she had what she desired, but what she thought love will be was at the opposite side of this man view of love. She started to hate love and being in love. "No, it is better off alone ! " she said. Now, when she sees a man, she just cannot think that he could be innocent and pure, as she was once.

For what this man insisted on having as a proof of love was just lust, and she was for him just an object... this was not a prince and this was not a beautiful fairy tale. She managed to escape, to not be used as an object. The Almighty God was there to help her, to protect her innocence and her future. Thus, this was a lesson for the girl, to know what true love s and not to be fooled again by men seeking only lust in a selfish manner.

Time passed, and she could think that, yes, the prince she dreamt as a young girl exists, but she must be careful not to be fooled again by selfish men. The prince exists, she can see in her friends having good husbands, she can see it in the love of her father for her mother. All she must be careful is not to believe in an illusion. She learned to open her eyes, she learned to be wise in love. She will no longer be easily fooled like Pinocchio or Little Red Riding Hood.

She has turned to ashes from this brief encounter. The dark side of the world she saw through his eyes was to the point of destroying her, to the point of suffocating her. She could not bear to know, to see all this. This was worst that any nightmare she could have. How come she searched love and found death ? She dreamed love and innocence and found disgusting images that followed her in her sleep, that she just hated...she hated also him for showing her such things.

But no, she knew she had to forgive him, it was her fault. If only she could believe those that tried to warn her that all was her illusion.

When near this man she only thought in her mind "how blind is this man, how blinded is by vice, he cannot recognize true love". For a moment she pitied him, and then, for the rest of her life. This man is the one living an illusion, now she knows. This man has no clue of true love, has the heart frozen by darkness, by death and by his ego. He just gives love a bad name he just believes a lie more that her before knowing him better. He is just a puppet on the strings of pleasures and Internet that are his gods...

He has lost his inner power because his heart is dead, and his eyes are blinded by lust. He is more illusioned than her, she saw this very clearly. He just believes in lies.

With all her compassion and repentance, she began to rise again. She cannot ever live in his dark world, but she can hope he will see one day the truth and rise from his death.

Goodbye naive girl, hello wise girl. Keep your goodness of heart, forgive and keep hoping that the dark men will one day wake up and see they have a death heart within. She believes all men could one day change their hearts and regain their light and the beauty. God can help them. She can pray for them, for him. Amen!