Falling for Someone She's Not Supposed To

A diary of him.

First Entry:

Tabria had met a man. And he was everything and more than she could ever deserve in a man. He had so many good qualities. He was such a prince.

When she met him, she never thought of him romantically, but after many deep conversations with him and spending lots of time together, she started to realize how much she was falling in love with him. He was not physically her “type." In the beginning, she considered him “too good, too pure,” almost “prudish." She would never have thought he would be the one she was dreaming of spending the rest of her life with. He had so many values that matched hers, and even though they didn’t agree on everything, even when they would argue, he would still make her smile so it never felt like a real argument. Even though there were things she didn’t like very much about him, she still loved them because she loved him, and that meant loving every part of him. He would get a little white, built-up crust in the corners between his lips. And he subtly disagreed with her on some things, and he would throw some shade, not really understanding what he was actually stating. Tabria was quite startled by this, but she felt that she could help show him her side, with the more time they spent with each other. But, there was a part of her that wondered if that was a red flag, and if he would always disagree with her on that. It wouldn’t be the end of the world, she thought. Something to know about Tabria is that she was super into Zodiacs, and she had already looked up the compatibility between a Leo man, and a Pisces woman. And to her, they sounded like a perfect couple. She knew she could make him feel appreciated and loved more, than any other. She wanted to show him that she could be that person for him, because he was already that person for her. Whenever she was having a bad day, she would look at him and his smile alone provided a huge comfort for her. He has such a kind and gentle spirit.

Second Entry:

She wondered what his touch would be like. Leos like to pay attention to their partner, and continue to prove themselves through all of their ongoing amazing work. She could picture what it would be like if they were a married couple in their bedroom. She could feel the bedding on her skin, his hot breath on her ear, the stubble on his chin and cheeks, when he kissed her on the forehead. She could feel everything. She could taste what it would be like to kiss him. His lips looked so good to her. She could imagine the feeling of his lips on her lips, the hot breath exchanged between the two of them. She could feel his weight on top of her, his hips strangely loose, and his arms pushing into hers, and holding them above her head as his weight would provide a barrier on top of her, but she wouldn’t feel trapped—oddly calm and protected

She felt like this was such an unfair feeling. All she wanted to do was have him hold and protect her. It never started off as physical for her. When she met him, she had no interest in him romantically, and actually found his body to be kind of gross. But after getting to know who he really is, she couldn’t help it. He was the perfect person for her. And, she felt like she could try to be that for him, too. She knew she didn’t deserve him. He was so perfect and grown. She was nothing but a 17 year old who had a crush on her WCC teacher, Mr. V. The more she thought about her feelings and tried to rationalize with herself, the more the feelings lessened, as the few people she had mentioned her infatuation to had told her that a 10 year age difference was crazy! This drove her crazy! She still thought that they would make a wonderful couple, and could possibly be very compatible. He had once told her that she had many of the qualities he would look for in a wife, as well as them sharing many loving glances almost daily. However, he had stopped doing that lately. She thought she was getting maybe too obvious with her infatuation. It had probably scared him away from spending so much time with her.