I am on top of her, looking down at her, sweat dripping from my body, my heart finally pacing at a normal rate. There was no mercy in my eyes. My expression plain and cold. Cheryl covers her face with her hands and wipes her tears. I waited for her to say something, to tell me that what she did to me was unforgivable. I wanted to hear her say it but it took too long to come out and I was running out of patience. I climbed off the bed, satisfied by the pleasure I had, sex. I begin to put my clothes back but she grabs my arm and pulls me toward her.

Tuesday morning.

Sex does not always guarantee love, and love does not always come with intimacy; all three of these things can be isolated into separate feelings and relationships, or if combined, and done correctly, can become the greatest love of your lifetime.

While it is my intention to turn you on with every blog I write, there are times when I have to bring something serious to your attention, as it is a relevant topic. I've mentioned the group I own on MeWe, called Mental Penetration—Kai Storm's Erotica Station, where I had a discussion about talking to your current lover about past love affairs. This topic came up after I saw a post on Instagram that said, "My past is none of your business! You'll either use it against me, or make me live through it again!" I had to ask myself, and others, about the validity of this post and statement.

If you have not read Part 1, I do suggest you go back and read it before reading this part as there are many references to that part.

I asked a fortune teller what my love life would look like. She looked me dead in the eye and said two words: "It sucks."

Recently I started dating again, and wow—there is nothing like putting yourself back out there to recycle your inner shit. It’s a challenge that I am cherishing right now. I have never felt too confident in the dating field, I know I am attractive in a bright and bubbly sort of way, not beautiful, interesting, and I am happy with myself and love myself after all these years, or so I thought.

Sleeping naked has always been my least favorite. I sweat so much that when I awaken, the sheets are soaked. God forbid I dream of him, then they’re even more soaked.

Your heart starts pounding. You've just wrapped up brunch. Your smile reflected in her eyes. Hands entwined together, fingers dancing with intimacy. You head back to your place to decide what to do for the rest of the day. You have an idea of what is going to happen next, or you don't. The truth it you haven't got a clue, this is brand new territory. The entire ride home you can’t help but laugh. Every note rings true, you burst into colors but in a pathetic way to remain calm you simply nod and smile. Afraid to let her know, let her know that she has you. All of you.

The sound of your name used to send shock waves throughout my body, informing me of your invading presence and the paradise that followed. Which was why I wasn't surprised at the inner turmoil coiling about inside me as I turned to catch your gaze from across the room. The gallery was crowded tonight, full of potential clients and investors, friends and family as well. And yet all that seemed to capture my attention was the wildfire in your chestnut eyes, tempting me to get lost in them once again.

Vanilla and BDSM are similar in some ways when it comes to what is too controlling. The main difference is rules and boundaries. In a vanilla relationship, you have boundaries and maybe rules to keep the relationship on the right track. The vanilla boundaries and rules may also be there to make sure there are no hurt feelings and everyone involved is on the same page. These rules and boundaries can be like monogamy: no being alone with certain genders (or people), and texting or calling when you arrive safe somewhere. In BDSM, some of the rules and boundaries can be similar to vanilla ones, but they go deeper than that. Part of the reason that the boundaries and rules go deeper in BDSM is because it's a power exchange lifestyle and the stuff we do is a little different. People have soft and hard limits and that's part of our boundaries and rules.

Bondage and kink as we know it has been around for over 50 years but it has only been or gotten popular just a few years ago. I believe the popularity of it all began with 50 Shades of Grey. We have talked before why 50 Shades of Grey was 50 shades of crap. People just couldn't get enough of kink, hopefully they learned the right way to do kinky stuff though. If it turns you on don't listen to the vanillas (the non kinky people), they may bad mouth what you like. Yes Christian Grey was a little abusive but there are doms out there that are 100 times better and they are true doms. Real doms will cringe or laugh when you mention 50 Shades. I think porn and Tumblr also helped. There have been other movies or books that mention or portray kink. Sometimes Criminal Minds does episodes based on kink or swinging. I know I got into it because of both 50 Shades and Tumblr.