Your Feelings don't matter... Kind of.

Fuck your feelings they don't matter... kind of. I’m not really saying fuck your feelings completely, just initially. They serve one purpose and really only one. TO FUEL YOU AND GET YOU STARTED.

Depression is a complex emotion that can be difficult to describe or fully understand. It's a feeling of profound loss or disappointment, a sense of heaviness and emptiness that can linger even when we try to distract ourselves from it. Being sad is like living in a fog, where everything feels muted and distant. The world loses its vibrancy, and even the things that once brought us joy become dull and uninteresting.

At times, sadness can be overwhelming, and we may feel like we're drowning in it. It's a feeling of hopelessness, where we can't see a way out of our pain. We may feel like we're stuck in a never-ending cycle of sadness and that things will never get better. It's a feeling of isolation, where we feel disconnected from the people and things around us. We may feel like no one understands us or that we are completely alone in our sadness.

Despite the pain that comes with sadness, there is also beauty in it. It's a reminder that we are human and that we are capable of feeling deeply. Sadness can be a source of inspiration for people who use their pain to create something beautiful and meaningful. It's a reminder that we are not alone in our suffering and that there is a shared human experience in the depths of our emotions.

When I first started trying to get away from the gravity of helplessness, it felt like an impossible task. I was mired in my own negative thoughts and feelings, and it felt like there was no escape from them. Everything felt heavy and burdensome, and even the simplest tasks seemed insurmountable. I knew that I needed to make changes in my life, but I didn't know where to start or how to find the motivation to do so.

Despite feeling like there was no way out, I knew that I couldn't continue living my life this way. I was tired of feeling helpless and wanted to take control of my life again. So, I started by setting small goals for myself. I forced myself to get out of bed every day, to take a shower, and get dressed. These small victories gave me a sense of accomplishment and motivated me to keep going.

As I continued to push myself, I began to notice small changes in my mood and outlook. I started to feel more energized and motivated, and my negative thoughts started to lose their power over me. I began to do things I had been putting off for months, like cleaning my apartment and organizing my finances. These small tasks gave me a sense of control over my life, and I started to feel like I was making progress.

Over time, as I continued to push myself, I began to feel like I had more agency over my life. I learned that taking small steps every day, even when I didn't feel like it, was key to overcoming my melancholy thoughts and feelings of helplessness. It wasn't an easy journey, but by focusing on small victories and taking control of my life, I was able to overcome my negative thoughts and create a more fulfilling life for myself.

Depression can make it difficult to even start small tasks, so setting achievable goals and tracking progress can be helpful. Here are some statistics related to starting small tasks for depression:

1. Setting small goals can help: Setting small goals can be helpful in getting started with tasks. A study published in the Journal of Consulting and Clinical Psychology found that participants who set small, achievable goals were more likely to complete tasks and experience improvements in their mood.

2. Breaking tasks into smaller parts can help: When tasks feel overwhelming, breaking them down into smaller, more manageable parts can help. A study published in the Journal of Psychiatric Research found that participants who broke down tasks into smaller steps were more likely to complete them.

3. Procrastination can worsen depression: Procrastination is common in individuals with depression, but it can worsen symptoms. A study published in the Journal of Affective Disorders found that procrastination was associated with greater levels of depression.

4. Accountability can be helpful: Accountability can help individuals with depression stay on track with completing small tasks. A study published in the Journal of Medical Internet Research found that accountability through text messages increased adherence to an exercise program among individuals with depression.

Overall, setting small goals, breaking tasks into smaller parts, avoiding procrastination, and using accountability can be helpful strategies in starting small tasks for individuals with depression.

As I continued to push myself and take control of my life, I started to notice a shift in my mindset. The negative thoughts that had once consumed me began to fade away, and I started to feel more optimistic about the future. I no longer felt weighed down by the gravity of helplessness and instead felt a sense of weightlessness and freedom.

This feeling of weightlessness allowed me to accept life's challenges as opportunities for growth and learning. Instead of feeling overwhelmed and defeated by setbacks, I saw them as opportunities to try again and learn from my mistakes. I started to take risks and pursue my passions, even if it meant stepping out of my comfort zone.

As I continued to challenge myself and pursue my goals, I began to feel a sense of fulfillment and purpose in my life. I was no longer living in the shadows of my negative thoughts and feelings of helplessness but rather embracing the lightness and potential of life. Even when faced with difficult situations or setbacks, I was able to maintain a positive outlook and persevere through the challenges.

In this new phase of my life, I feel more confident and self-assured than ever before. I know that I am capable of overcoming obstacles and pursuing my dreams, no matter how challenging they may seem. The weightlessness that I feel now is a testament to the power of taking control of one's life and the potential for growth and transformation. I would not have been able to be where I am now without the initial though of "Fuck my feelings they don't matter... kind of"