The T$T Beast
Hello World, I’d love for you to meet the T$T Beast. He was born out of fear and limitations but grew into something more.
Revenge is a deeply ingrained part of our human psyche. It is something that anybody in any culture, society, or religious affiliation can respond to. It has existed for millenniums, and it is a common theme in literature, movies, and novels throughout the years.
Your Love Has Ruined Me
Dear Mother Dearest, Ever since the day I was born have I felt sheltered in your unadulterated, loving embrace and sheltering eye. You arms remained forever ready to hold me, rocking me gently with eyes closed, even to this very day, and your lips were ever ready to kiss the slightest wound I received in the course of daily activities, childhood or otherwise. Never did you let me wander too far from your sight, and your diligence in keeping me from endeavors you deemed too dangerous for me, or even beneath me, was the stuff of local legends.
Have ability and temper
It is an indisputable fact that all capable people have a temper. As the old saying goes, "an official has a big temper". I think that's the truth. If your ability is better than the people around you, control your temper and develop good personal conduct, I think it will be of great benefit to the growth of life.
Struggles of a Would Be Minimalist
Our little family of three is nearing the end of its long slow crawl to home ownership. As we begin to pack up our belongings, I pause to take stock of these things that have survived all the phases of our lives so far. There's stuff from the past seven years since our daughter was born. There’s a bunch of junk from the six years my husband and I were married, but still childless. And I can’t forget the crap we brought into the mix as singles.
Dear Mamma, you know how in the second year of my college I stopped asking you for money… I funded my academic life by dealing hashish, you know like weed, but solid. I carried out two big sales a semester because it would be safer than dealing dime and nickle bags to students all times of the day and night. The idea was maximise profit per transaction and minimise exposure to getting caught. I was in it for the money Mamma, not a get rich but to pay bills. I knew you couldn't do it and you know very well that because of my status I couldn't get a proper job. I should have realised that my exposure to low level criminals rather than innocent students would be an issue. I was canny but innocent, not streetwise. Everything went smoothly thought and I had access to the quality merchandise at decent prices. However, by the final year, the police had closed down all the other wholesalers by breaking up the three criminal gangs in the city. Since I wasn't linked to any gang, it was business as usual and of course business was booming, so much that when I was offered five litres of the finest quality Afghani hash oil I took it Mamma and I was happy. My idea was that it would be my last deal, you know Mamma, I knew I was going to leave with a degree, then I could get a proper job and pay back my loans and maybe even buy you a house with a little garden.
Revelations from a people pleaser
Since I can remember I've always believed that saying "no" to someone was something to be ashamed of. I was raised with the belief that if you can do something to help someone else, then you should do it regardless of the effects that it may have on you. It's taken me years to break this thought process in my mind, and frankly it's still a work in progress; however I have continued to learn and become more comfortable with being uncomfortable.
Too Critical of Myself
I guess I should start by saying, the whole decision to write this bit came from the intrusive thought I had while searching Google “this will look suspicious sitting in my recent searches. Even though I’m looking it up about a friends kid, it could get used against me.” This thought happens often with Google and DING! You guessed it, I’ve had my search history checked by my significant other. Not even two hours ago, I found myself thinking about the fact I had spent a little too long on Facebook, better watch it! Why? Because although he claimed he didn’t also monitor that, my phone notified me of screen time. Could have been innocent enough being just that, but can it EVER be JUST THAT? Nope. I spent THREE HOURS on Facebook, thank you for that reminder today, Apple. It has now been weaponized against me and my productivity for the day, in the most innocent of ways, of course. I can hardly ever allow my sink to fill with dishes anymore. Is it because I’m OCD or a neat freak? Honestly, I never used to care either way. Now my internal dialogue does. No one is here to tell me what a waste of space I am in the flesh, but they never really leave your mind. One of my kids acts out and I instantly feel guilty like I’ve failed as a parent..is it because I believe I’m a failure? No. Is it because I expect them to be perfect? Nope. It’s because that seed of doubt was planted and watered for years. It’s flourished into one of the biggest plants in my head and now I’m trying to drown it. Do you know how hard it is to kill a flourishing plant with years and years of roots? You might as well tell me good job breathing because at this point, I have to remind myself that it’s okay to take up space. It’s okay to have a voice and feelings. It’s okay to mess up. It’s okay to relax on the days you’re feeling exhausted without playing that tape in the back of your mind that you are, indeed, lazy and a waste of space like you’ve been told in the past. I think someone who is overly critical of themselves is like a divine piece of artwork that has had a lot of effort and manipulation and thought and time put into it to mold it into something that stays. Stays stagnant. Compliant. Doubtful. Hesitant. Insecure.
Dreaming of you. Who are you and why do I keep dreaming of you? You take many forms, but the vibes are always the same. Whether or not you are someone I know or a complete stranger I always dream of you. Local celebrities that are on my mind or a minor crush that I pass by on the street and think that you are cute. Why are you haunting my dreams and why do I feel so guilty about it? Whenever I dream and then pass by one of the people, I dreamed you being, I always feel a rush that normally never comes over me. What is this rush and why do I crave it? I crave the closeness and the connection but is that so wrong? To want someone who can step into your soul and physical being and take away all word and thoughts you might have.
Another step outside of your comfort zone，It can only make you better
Humans are known for their love of comfort. We can relax in comfort because there is no fight-or-flight response, no worry, and no uncertainty. We now live mostly in comfort, having eliminated most aspects of survival. We work to earn money to feed our families, then return home and relax in front of the television. We are no longer hunting for food or fighting for survival the way our forefathers did. We take pleasure in the comfort of our surroundings.
The Secrets of a Massive Introvert
There once lived a girl. She came from a land of horror that brought great sadness. This land was her only home and it brought true fear to her will of surviving it through. The magic that the evil people held and the spells they would cast were so full of wickedness that she did not know how to breathe. The prayers of these people were contained with hate. The thoughts of them were so horrid and incompetent that then the use of psychic capabilities then turned into something unsatisfactory. It feels almost as if it was truly impossible to get it out when there is just way too much pain to deal with.
5 Major Benefits of Corporate Training in Digital Marketing
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