Fallin' For You

I added the lyrics (from azlyrics.com) to have enough words but they're blocked so skipping them is easier (or you can read while listening if you're like me).

I don't know but I think I may be fallin' for you

Droppin' so quickly

Maybe I should keep this to myself

Wait until I know you better

I am trying, not to tell you

But I want to

I'm scared of what you'll say

And so I'm hiding what I'm feeling

But I'm tired of holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time

Just thinking 'bout you

I don't know what to do

I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my life

And now I found you

I don't know what to do

I think I'm fallin' for you

I'm fallin' for you

As I'm standing here

And you hold my hand

Pull me towards you

And we start to dance

All around us

I see nobody

Here in silence

It's just you and me

I'm trying, not to tell you

But I want to

I'm scared of what you'll say

And so I'm hiding what I'm feeling

But I'm tired of holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time

Just thinking 'bout you

I don't know what to do

I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my life

And now I found you

I don't know what to do

I think I'm fallin' for you

I'm fallin' for you

Oh, I just can't take it

My heart is racing

The emotions keep spinning out

I've been spending all my time

Just thinking 'bout you

I don't know what to do

I think I'm fallin' for you

I've been waiting all my life

And now I found you

I don't know what to do

I think I'm fallin' for you

I'm fallin' for you

I think I'm fallin' for you

I can't stop thinking 'bout it

I want you all around me

And now I just can't hide it

I think I'm fallin' for you

I can't stop thinking 'bout it

I want you all around me

And now I just can't hide it

I think I'm fallin' for you

I'm fallin' for you

Oh, oh, no, no

Oh, oh, I'm fallin' for you

I wanted to share this on Vocal because it is pretty accurate in how I feel towards my really good friend. There are too many problems with the fact that I like him...

First, he's married.

Second, he has a child.

Finally, he's my friend.

Okay, maybe not "too many" but definitely huge issues.

I won't allow myself to tell him. I can't ruin their relationship or our friendship. It just really sucks that I can't be honest without potential repercussions.

I think I am a piece of human garbage for liking him but I have no idea how to get rid of feelings.

"If you love someone, set them free. If they come back, they're yours; if they don't, they never were." -Richard Bach

While I can't set him completely free, I have improved with talking to him less. I volunteer and participate in events at his place of employment. The volunteering began long before the crush. I don't want to stop giving back because of liking him. I can't just stop co-facilitating a group with him 3/4 of the way through it. That would be suspicious to a lot of people and I don't want to ruin other friendships too. Everyone in the organization knows him and I think they already suspect that I have feelings but I don't want them to know for sure. Volunteering there is one of the few things I am passionate about. They have helped me since I was 13, helping is the least I can do.