Thank you for giving me the gift of life! If it wasn't for you loving me, protecting me and taking care of me those nine months I was inside your womb I wouldn't be here. Thank you for kissing all my cuts, scrapes and bruises. Thank you for picking me up everytime I fell down and telling me to try it again. Thank you for your warm hugs and gentle touch. Thank you for always making my favorite dessert, cheesecake, just because you wanted to see that big smile on my face. Thank you for wrestling around, playing tag and whatever other silly game my sister and I were playing. Thank you for helping me be the child that you would have loved to watch grow up and helping me be the woman that I know you would be proud of today. Most importantly that you for being my mother.
I turned and looked out through the glass door. I saw a dark figure standing there looking at me. I couldn’t see their face or tell if it was a guy or a girl. Whoever it was turned and walked away but my body still felt like it was vibrating and my eyes were burning. I must’ve gotten something in my eyes, so I headed towards the bathrooms. When I headed over to the sink and saw my face in the mirror. I shrieked and fell against the bathroom stall. My eyes were bright green, kinda looked like they were glowing. My body still was pulsing and my head started pounding.
Who knew that the year 2020 would be so chaotic and that we would be struggling to get by. This year didn't just affect a few people, everyone was affected. Some people lost their jobs, some lost their homes and other lost their lives. People get sick and die everyday but I think this year really made us appreciate life and everything that we still have. I think it made us realize how short life can be sometimes, at least it did for me. It can make you take a step back for a moment and reflect on your life. So I'm taking a step back and pondering what I am thankful for.
The next few days went by really fast and strange things were happening. Everytime I go outside I feel a sense of power, I feel like I’m a part of nature. Don’t get me wrong I’ve always loved the outdoors but now it’s like nature obeys me. I can make plants grow and sometimes I feel like the trees are talking to me. I can make the leaves whistle in the wind and I can feel the earth humming through my feet. I don’t know if i’m just going crazy or if something else is going on. And to make things even weirder is that I still get the sense of being watched and I swear everywhere I go Zane is there but he never talks to me. He just stares and disappears.
First, second and third period went by fast and now it is time for lunch. I went to my locker and put my stuff away. I heard the familiar shriek of Amanda’s laugh and I quickly shoved my head in my locker. I was so not in the mood for her; luckily she was too busy talking and didn’t see me. Her locker was on the other side of the hall and about six lockers down from mine. She was talking to Tanzie and Danielle about the new guy and I couldn’t help but to overhear.
Exercising like running has always been my go to when things get tough or when I need a break from reality. Sometimes life can get so challenging that I just need to get away from the world and just be by myself. Writing does that for me but when it doesn't I go for a run. Not saying that I only run when I'm upset or need to get away but it does help. So when I'm running to cool down and work off some steam I like to listen to some heavy metal bands or songs that are angry and upbeat to keep me calm. Songs like Break by Three Days Grace. I also listen to Just Like You by Three Days Grace, Headstrong by Trapt and many more. Listening to this kind of music speaks to me when I am highly angry and upset.