ptsd

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder; The storm after the storm.

The Devastation of the Traditional Christmas Song.
Today I sat down at my computer to try and program a game that I have decided to build without any knowledge of programming. When I work, I like to listen to music, it helps my ADHD brain focus. I wasn't sure what I wanted to Fatal error!
By Nicholas R Yang2 years ago in Psyche
Where did the children go?
November 2019 The ride back from seeing Racheal was anything but boring. I kept thinking about whether I should go to the STAR group the next day, and I must have thought of a thousand excuses not to. I was worried about crowds and didn’t want to make another trip into the city. But honestly, none of those excuses were solid enough to skip it, especially since I had already told Racheal I would be there.
By ᔕᗩᗰ ᕼᗩᖇTY2 years ago in Psyche
When He took it away from me
I pushed so many people away from fear of rejection, and no patience. My ex-husband has no patience when was in college before taking a semester or two off he would threaten me that he would leave me. This feeling was so damaging to be I wasn't sure of what to think or say. I felt like Shane took away my ability to trust, and to love.
By Emily Curry (Rising Phoenix)2 years ago in Psyche
Serving Beyond Yourself
Not Everyone is Willing to Serve Others. They say we Live in a "Dog-Eat-Dog World" where you have to "Look Out for Yourself".
By H.E. Dr. Cody Dakota Wooten, COIE, DFM, DHM2 years ago in Psyche
Kind of Cruel
At first I thought that we were just kind of cruel. We were teenagers who thought we didn’t matter. It was almost like we knew each other in another life. We just understood each other without speaking. We both loved each other very much but we weren’t good for each other. Sadly only one of us made it out of that shitty town. I can’t blame him for his actions, if I were in his shoes I honestly would have done the same thing. We both lost very important people in our lives, I think that we still have more people to lose. I just didn’t know he was going to be one of them. Whenever I think about it for too long I get the same amount of anger I felt when I watched him die. All we wanted to do was make our hometown proud and it doesn’t feel like any of us did. It got all too much for him and I wish I could’ve seen it at the time. When the worst was happening to both of us we were always there for eachother. I didn’t know how to be a person without him. We swore that one day we would be running that city. Now I can’t go anywhere in that city without feeling sick.
By Nat 2 years ago in Psyche
For Those Who Feel Without Hope
There will be Days when it Feels like there is No Hope. These Days Will Happen. It May be Today. It May be Coming. But A Day Will Come When We Hit Bottom.
By H.E. Dr. Cody Dakota Wooten, COIE, DFM, DHM2 years ago in Psyche
Where did the children go?. Content Warning.
Time has flown by since I opened up to Racheal about everything. You know, the incest and the mental and physical abuse from my half-brother, Ronnie. It's been 23 months now. Right now, I'm out of work because my company shut down its Baton Rouge offices, and honestly, I'm just really worn out. Plus, I still deal with a lot of pain from that car accident back in 2009 when a drunk teenager hit me on my way to work. I did sue her and got $120,000, but of course, my lawyer, who was a total crook, took more than half of it.
By ᔕᗩᗰ ᕼᗩᖇTY2 years ago in Psyche
Grieving Change...
I had a very intense day, in many ways, a few days ago. It held new beginnings... I realized that I am not scared of going back to court.
By Adora Hooper2 years ago in Psyche
Narcissist or Borderline Personality Disorder?
"A person with BPD seeks love for security whereas a person with NPD seeks love for attention". If you're still in a toxic relationship, it's likely you've done all the research; recognized the process (the grooming, devaluing, discarding, and hoovering), traits and tactics (lack of empathy, need for admiration, lying, manipulating), and felt the effects of abuse (hypervigilance, confusion, loss of a sense of self, isolation).
By writemindmatters2 years ago in Psyche
Aging and Hospitalization: A Mantra to Help Rapid Recovery
As we age, our bodies deteriorate, and disease and degenerative changes take their toll. We become incapacitated and end up in hospitals where our hard-working doctors and nurses patch us up to get us fit again to go back home.
By Mal Mohanlal2 years ago in Psyche
Where did the children go?. Content Warning.
1975 April I wasn't exactly the brightest crayon in the box, if you catch my drift. I had spent the last three years in private school, where my main focus seemed to be learning how to kiss girls. Seriously! My first kiss happened in 7th grade! The schoolwork was pretty dull and felt like a repeat of what I learned back in 5th grade, even though I was supposed to be in 8th. But hey, I did enjoy reading. "The Giving Tree" was one of my top two favorites, and "Oliver Twist" by Charles Dickens was my all-time favorite. I connected with it since I was officially an orphan, having lost both my parents. Now, here I was in Plantersville, Texas, also known as the middle of nowhere, and while 9th grade was somewhat fun, I wasn't really shining academically anymore. Things were tough at home, which made school even harder. Thankfully, I had a really awesome teacher, Mrs. Lampe, who treated me like I mattered. I also had a cool friend, Jeanette Ripkowski, and we hung out between classes. It felt good to know I had at least two people who cared about me.
By ᔕᗩᗰ ᕼᗩᖇTY2 years ago in Psyche
Doing the Wrong Things. Content Warning.
I have been accused of doing the wrong things many times over my lifetime. And I agree that I have made a number of the wrong decisions.
By Adora Hooper2 years ago in Psyche