Dissociation

Recently, I’ve experienced an intense bout of emotional dissociation.  It’s inspired me to write this and provide some insight.  When a person is physically tortured they find out that their nervous system can only take so much (or resist) physical pain before it shuts down, causing them to physically pass out/go unconscious.  It’s much the same with emotional pain.  When this part of ourselves shuts down (due to feeling emotionally tortured) it’s referred to as dissociation.  Instead of passing out physically, a person passes out (goes unconscious) emotionally.  

Dissociation occurs If a person resists their current state of Being (pain is resistance), especially if a person hasn’t developed the awareness of their own emotions and denies them.  When a person dissociates from their emotional selves, the pain may appear to be gone, however it’s simply hiding in the background.  Those hidden emotions must find an outlet and they often do by negatively affecting that persons biochemistry.  They may even show up in that persons physical body as an illness, disease or injury.  Our emotions are experienced as our own bodies reactions to our thoughts.  

So, when we are experiencing severe emotional pain, we must first remember that this pain is in response to certain incessant thought patterns, often involving the past or the imagined future.  This is our mind-created ego, our false self.  Once we recognize these thought patterns we can then step outside of them and become the awareness of them, as opposed to them becoming who we think we are, at that moment.  The same applies to our emotions, once we recognize the emotions within us we begin to dissociate those emotions from who we are as opposed to dissociating from ourselves through denial/resistance of them.  

Once we recognize them and begin to dissociate the emotions from who we are, this process, it’s dissolving our emotional pain-bodies.  Some of us have some icebergs within us, lol.  Thusly, this dissolution of the emotional pain-body and trauma doesn’t happen overnight, after all, it’s built up for a lifetime....it takes time and patience.  We may think we have completely healed from an issue or event and then come to find out later that it still lives within us.  We know that our emotions are products of our thoughts/ego.  But sometimes that knowing isn’t enough to keep them from overtaking us or to keep us from falling into our false selves and becoming them.

  There are many methods to use when this happens.  The one that stands out to me the most is to simply get to a quiet/still place and simply allow the emotion to be.  Meanwhile your focus isn’t on understanding the emotion analytically, it’s on allowing the emotion to be while bringing your own inner body into focus.  To begin to feel the aliveness within your hands and then moving to other parts of your body.  Feel the depth, the infinite of who you are, the real you.  Feel your own heart do the same as the universe, expand and contract, feel the same with your diaphragm, expanding and contracting.  

With each deep breathe, feel the energy of the Universe flowing through you, expanding you, forcing you to come alive.  When a person feels this aliveness within them (also referred to as Presence), the pain is then dissolved and goes back to a dormant state until it’s completely gone one day.  This is reflective of ceasing identification with thought/ego and instead focusing on the energy of the body.  A persons consciousness flows to where that persons focus goes.  If a person is completely identified in their mind/ego, then their mental self gets the majority of their consciousness, leaving very little for their Being.  

This is the dysfunction that humanity faces today, completely identified with the mind/ego.  This is the human side of us.  But, we aren’t simply “humans”, we are human Beings.  As such there’s another side to us outside of the human/ego side, we also have the Being/consciousness side.  Each of us have two purposes on this planet, an inner purpose and an outer purpose.  The inner-shared purpose of every human being on this planet - to become aware/present with their own Being.  To become conscious of consciousness itself.  To shift the focus of our consciousness from being trapped in our mind/ego and into our very Being, into our energetic bodies.

  To shift from thought alone, into feeling.  This is the evolution of consciousness.  And then of course we have our outer purpose, which is what we do in our day to day life.  I believe the goal isn’t to search for an outer purpose, it’s to focus primarily on our inner purpose, knowing that if we do, our outer purpose will naturally fall into place.  This is because we are no longer deriving our purpose from something that’s self appreciating, we’re deriving it from taking part in something that’s for the whole of humanity - expanding consciousness. If anyone ever asks you what their purpose is, let them know their purpose is to be doing exactly what they are doing at this NOW moment.  

What they are actually doing has no bearing on their inner-purpose.  This is because their inner purpose has nothing to do with what they are DOING and everything to do with their state of BEING while they do whatever they do.  Our inner purpose is to elevate the collective consciousness, the only way to do this is by Being present, by living in the NOW moment as the awareness of self. So many of us feel like we’re under so much pressure to find out who we really are and what role we’re supposed to play in this life.  

Incessantly searching for purpose and identification.  Now we know.  Our purpose is to simply live in the NOW moment.  Anytime our ego seems to take over by attempting to identity from the past or fulfillment from the future, we simply kick back and laugh at it.....like hey, I see you there....not this time :). Once we achieve life in this NOW moment, we’ve become free of incessant thought and emotion, we’ve become free of the egoic mind.  In it place we’ve embraced our own essence, our Being, our consciousness.  This is true enlightenment, the absence of resistance, judgement and attachment.  Welcome to the Age of Aquarius.