Where Do I Begin...

It seems as though I am sleeping

Checking out, dreaming

of how I wish things could be

Thought love could set me free

From a darkening and freezing cold world

Alas, changes should begin

Even though I feel some good in me....

I still live in sin

Never understanding the purpose that I am living in

Searching....grasping...crying...laughing

Living in the moment I am currently in....

There is only one thing that keeps me going

Finding love....being loved....getting back what I give

This is not how I envisioned I would live...

This vampire hunger, unquenchable thirst

Sends me on this insatiable search....

I crave it, need it, smell it, taste it

Without this love my life feels wasted

Never knowing....somehow, I still keep going

The sunrises every day

This pain never leaves me

I keep trying anyway