Warning Signs
Alternate Title: The Inability to Trust Earnest Love
Jagged memories rip me away from him
He is so kind
So loving
And he’s mine
But somehow, when he speaks, it feels familiar
“I’ll call you in a while,” he says. “I’ll talk to you when I’m off work.”
Like the guy before him
And so,
like the guy before him,
I never truly expect to hear my phone ring
“I love spending time with you,” he says.
“But it’s time to go now. I’ll see you again soon.”
Like the few before him, I believe it in the moment,
But the next day I start to doubt.
After a week, will it be over?
Or was that just the others?
“I didn’t think I’d feel this way about you when we met,” he says.
The others might have well have said the same thing.
“I didn’t think I’d fall this fast,” one said
“I can’t imagine my life without you,” said another
“Lily, I want years of you,” was in there too
Although none hurt as bad as “I think I want this to last forever.”
Especially when it didn’t
The others followed a pattern:
We meet, and we fall hard.
We are fire and ice
and destruction and breath
all at once
And for a moment, we own the world
We are royalty. We are an empire.
We are unstoppable.
Or at least that’s what they tell me.
And then they stop coming by,
They stop calling,
They fade away into the background,
Or they give their attention to someone else.
There’s always signs but rarely a clean break,
so I trained myself to recognize the omens.
We’ll see each other less
And you’ll disappear longer
And leave me on read more
And call me “babe” less and less.
And so when I see him busy
When he disappears for a few hours
When he leaves me on read,
it takes everything in me not to pull away
We didn’t fall right away, but we’re still falling hard.
We weren’t fire and ice,
but rain and echos.
We weren’t destruction,
But by God we were breath.
We weren’t great in a moment,
but our moments make us great
And no one has ever made me feel so safe
So when you’re so much different than all the others,
Why do your actions still feel like warning signs?
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Lily Winter
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