Wandering Thoughts

Wandering thoughts. What will they say today? Everyday they pick a new favorite word. Yesterday, it was failure. They liked it so much, they never stopped saying it. Sometimes without hesitation; a reminder of how I should feel. I’m curious what they think of me today. I wonder, are they right ?

Wandering, wandering thoughts. Straightforward thoughts are foreign to me. There is no point A to point B. A thought simply continues, sometimes seeming as if it started completely new but always ends up connecting, like the circles I walk in. I wonder, is this normal?

Wandering, wandering, wandering thoughts. I look at myself in the mirror. And I think. I think. I think. I think. And I can’t stop thinking. Analyzing every inch, criticizing each feature and I can’t make the thoughts stop. Until I pull myself away from the mirror. Then I continue with my day. I wonder, could I ever be content?

Wandering, wandering, wandering... Thoughts about my past often bubble up. Sometimes about the future but almost never about the present. I think about the traps hidden along my path. I think about what would have made a difference. I wonder, does it make a difference?

Wandering, wandering thoughts. These thoughts are the conversations I have with myself. Only myself, never other people despite having much to say; they just never listen. But I listen. I listen so well that sometimes all I hear are my own ramblings. I wonder, should I feel lonely?

Wandering thoughts. Who will they sound like today? Sometimes they're my dad and sometimes they're my friend. Sometimes they're my grandma and sometimes they're a stranger. And sometimes they're me. But they always say the same thing. And I wonder, what will they say today?

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