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new year’s eve of snowy bliss

my lips became

- your last kiss

.

we had only met a few hours prior

your sparkling eyes

- a realm higher

.

my inner child so carried away

already envisioning

- a wedding day

.

we talked and kissed until the dawn

my heart was full

- journeying home

.

not possible for us to have known

just days later

- you’d be gone

.

weeks later (at work) I got a call

space requested

- for your memorial

.

i’ll never forget that moment of shock

the sudden understanding

- why we hadn’t talked

.

i served your friends as they toasted goodbyes

it took every strength

- not to break down and cry

.

for they had known you many years

your hopes and dreams

- your faults and fears

.

i had known you just for some hours

as if that matters

- when grief overpowers

.

as if connection was measured by length of time

instead the moment

- your heart became mine

.

i felt others would judge my utter devastation

as if my grief owed

- some kind of explanation

.

i didn’t know how to react

so tried my best

- just to stay intact

.

i couldn’t wait to close the door

to cry and cry

- then cry some more

.

i carry the memory of your softness

hands and lips

- adoring aloftness

.

i carry the memory of your smile

grazing my skin

- like I was fragile

.

i still don’t know how I’m supposed to grieve

for my one night love,

- for you, Steven