Three Sizes too Small

Young love

is what we were.

One day you were here

the next, you were gone.

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Graduation,

you didn’t see.

Marriage,

you missed.

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You came back

but I was taken.

Living the life,

I dreamed with you.

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When you left,

I caged my heart.

I could love,

but my heart belonged to you.

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My heart broke,

when my spouse revealed

the love he had

for a childhood love of his own.

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Another cage surrounded

my heart

protection I know

and it did serve me well.

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A second,

a third marriage,

and another two cages

was added to my heart.

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Cold,

not willing to open

standing still

alone in the world.

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I am happy

looking for no one.

Done, willing to live

life alone.

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I knew

where you were.

My mind screamed,

“He left you!” Leave him alone.

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Two years,

I walked passed

your store

undetected, unnoticed.

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The cages,

held tight.

Spoke lowly

of myself.

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We had many shared experiences.

Including taboo topics,

things we understood

in the pages of the Bible.

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Twenty one years later,

I reached out

for assistance.

Little did I know..

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You’ve been waiting and hoping,

to make things right.

To tell me

the truth of your leaving.

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I had waited

thirty years,

to hear,

what I had done wrong.

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I had not done wrong

came your words

to me.

responsibilities did us wrong.

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Lost,

never received letters,

caused us

to go our own separate ways.

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My ears,

could not believe,

the words of confession

came from my first love.

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We have grown older,

children gone,

alone in this world,

but willing to reach out.

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Will I walk alone

again?

Do I believe

again?

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I pondered

my mind,

heart,

and soul.

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The cages,

rumbled deep inside.

with a snap

the first cage broke.

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Second, third cages

burst like a damn.

Now, I am here

free from the bondage.

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I have known love

that hurts from

deception

and ill intent.

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Today,

my heart hurts

from forgiveness,

and acceptance.

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Yes, love

my heart grew three sizes

when I heard

the truth of your love.

This pain,

is being let go.

to make room

for you, once again.