The Jump

I’ve been on a journey; I’ve lived out a story.

I’ve experienced the waves and had the craze.

I feel the crash and maybe it’s brash, but I know it’s all gotta mean something to someone.

My life has been nothing out of an ordinary textbook that an alien perhaps would read, wanting to learn about the human experience.

My identity is in a constant transformation; I experience the nature of this universe playing out in front of my eyes in my daily life. As I change, I seem to become less and less similar to the people, places and things that surround me.

I change until it becomes painfully tight to continue to live what once fit me.

That is the nature of a spiritual awakening. That is the nature of my spiritual awakening and to share the experiences I have, these realizations I gain and these insights I have along the way is what would truly mean something to me.

To have someone see the progress and the journey and how it twists and turns.

To extract meaning from the traumas that I explore so that I can share the deeper reason behind what was causing me suffering and therefore how to resolve it.

I hope to inspire you, perhaps make you feel less alone, maybe validate what you might be experiencing too.

But right now, I’ve got nothing to lose.

My life is at another one of those moments where things need to change. The ship must be jumped from because things are getting too tight and it’s coming to that time.

Taking the leap and sharing the thoughts inside my head feels correct. I don’t know where this will lead to, if it will amount to what I’d hope, all I know is that I need to just do something.

I need to try something different. I cannot keep living the same life.

As I sit in my car, brain fog crippling my ability to express these thoughts to what my self critical judgment would have be the standard, I put my hands out to the universe and take the jump.

I need to get out of my house amongst the very people that instilled the trauma in me that I seek to heal.

I want to experience the life that I’ve dreamed of.

I want to experience the tangible love all around me in people that exchange smiles and have interest in how I’m feeling and what I have to say and how my day is going.

I want to experience abundance and I know that it’s possible because I have seen just how much what I focus on reverberates in my reality. The synchronicities that deliver messages.

There is no one before me to lay out the path of my own unique life that I must walk, so I have no way to know whether I’m doing it right other than to just try what feels right to me and take my shot.

I don’t know how it will be or turn out.

I don’t know where my wildest dreams lie awake, ready to cradle me in their warm welcoming arms.

But I know that it is up to me to take the leap and I am the only one that can make the jump.

So here I go.