So Long

I wanted your face to reflect mine,

The lines from worry and tears

That ran down in sleepless nights

Full of woe and irrational fears.

I wanted you to know it too,

Sadness that knocks on your door.

When you didn’t expect a visitor,

And one you cannot ignore.

I yearned for anyone to know

That feeling in my chest,

A rotting? No.. it's breaking?

No, no, it’s just bursting.

It feels like it’s been so long,

Since someone has asked,

“What is wrong with you today?”

But instead, “I know that feeling, you’ll be ok.”

I’ve ached for someone to know it,

The anxiety, the misery of existing.

It feels as if it has been so long since

Someone's face reflected mine.

I will keep waiting until you understand.