Skeleton

I’ve been thinking about what I need and want and if I needed to compromise between the two. I’ve learned that the misconceptions I’ve had about what I wanted are not true and that I can have my cake and eat it too. I don’t want to tie you down and make you feel like you have no freedom in what you want to do. I want to care and feel cared for I want to give myself to you and know that there’s more to our feelings than just what physically meets the eye. When you cry I want to cry and find comfort in the hugs along with the genuine consolidation we give each other. I want to know that we have each other knowing no one could ever take anything from us. I just want to know you give a fuck about me not just about my body. I want you to find me beautiful and feel a loss when you cannot have me. I want to build up a relationship of comfort understanding and mutual empathy. I want to be able to come to you for anything no matter what I’m going through and for you to come to me knowing I got you and will support anything that you do. I want safety and security knowing that as long as you’re with me nothing can breach the wall you’ve curated around me. I’m not saying I want a relationship even though it sounds pretty close. I’m honestly not ready for that and the thought of giving myself to some like that terrifies me. I wanna be able to look into your eyes and know you won’t lie to me. I want to have conversations about the moon planets and the stars talking about aliens and what’s it’d be like to live on mars. I want to look into your eyes and know that you’ve got a piece of my heart and seeing you smile taking in the curves of my face letting me know our bond sure is something far beyond then what we originally thought.