I should feel accomplished
Part of me actually does
To the other side
I close my eyes and reminisce
Of random moments
That held joy and happiness
Laughter, true laughter
And a bright light glowing around me
Then I open my eyes
I hear the silence
I hear it through the whistling wind
I hear it through my breathing
I hear it through the deep dark night
It is literally nothing
It is the response of a rock
Or maybe that of a tree
Wait—It couldn’t be a tree
I would’ve heard the swaying branches
What is more silent than rejection
Rather the lack of response rejection
Is he merely a coward
Or does he want to pretend I don’t exist
Maybe he saves me this way
To let me not feel embarrassed
To make me not actually feel rejected
So I may move along and stop trying
And yet, I just feel unworthy
Unworthy of an “I’m not interested”
He took the cowardice road
My mind is paying his tolls
But I took the winding road
That road of courage and fear
Acknowledgment is better than silence
But I will rest my purpose
I cannot force a boy to be a man
I cannot speak to what I want to hear
I can move forward
And know I didn’t hold back
I did not leave silence
I merely followed his cue of no response
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